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travel light

2009-12-05T02:12:00.002+08:00

He who would travel happily must travel light.
Antoine de Saint Exupéry

encountered this advise while browsing web.it applies to me.

and my mum.

HAHA

shoutout...

2009-11-23T02:48:00.001+08:00

lol. my roomie is back. What a wonderful weekend I had before he came back. I realized that I really appreciate being alone in my OWN room...=P a room in Beijing!!

Now, 2240, alone in 15th District, Paris

2009-11-12T05:10:00.007+08:00

i know ady. I can revive this blog by typing some thoughts．some 心情短语。

somehting i dont wanna shout out like stupid in fb.but i actually i posted this in fb before in blogspot:

i managed to make my own hot fudge cake with my choc bar + choc cake + microwave.Yummy!!!

lol.missed my flight to venice yesterday but compensated with a day-long stay in my ex............i mean ex TA of Linear Algebra and Analyical Geometry in year one.lol.Her name is 王冠颖. I would have failed this exam without having her helping me, giving me personal tuition in her officed until 10pm sth at nite...feel so grateful.

Eiffel Tower

^^

and lastly, me , taken by her,under guidance of me. HAHAA

and now, she(my TA) has gone to her friend's place in the fourth ring to giv her(her fren) company, cos her fren says the mrs.landlord is not at home only mr.landlord there. so she is afraid. so my GY TA so jimui go n teman her d.left me alone in this cosy apartment in 15th district. so basically i spent whole day here cos yesterday was so sick n tired of the RETURN trip to the fucking far-away beauvais airport just to miss my flight.

damn. spoilt my mood seriously. fortunately I have this nice apartment today, being alone,it sooth my mind, and then I am ready for Rome on Friday now. Ciao!!!

im a lazy ass

2009-11-03T05:30:00.001+08:00

y do i have to be a lazy ass today.on my chinese bday. i just dont understand.is that the post-travel depression symptom? if yes i shall quit travelling liao..zzz

维豪带队在伦敦的永远第一天

2009-11-02T07:10:00.015+08:00

原想保持spaces写中文，blogspot写英语的。但是，看了你的部落格，想念黑色的感觉，加上照片需要黑底衬托。所以。

看了你最近喜欢的歌曲，查无此人。知道你一直是理性与感性兼具的人。多年没有交换生活，首先是在听你说起龙应台的时候很兴奋。我们都在对方不知情的时候一起看了她的文章。一起被她感动。26号那天晚上，大家都太累了，不然，我还真想一边乱翻你的她的书，一边与你卧聊。

跟在你后头走。开心。哥儿们我们在伦敦相见了。

听你叽叽喳喳介绍伦敦，像个地道的人，我慢慢想象你两年经历过的一切。

可爱依旧 =P

我们上一次这样拍照是什么时候？

我印象深刻的表情

我们在晴空下

怎么搞得有点像在追思一样 XD

我给你的经典

好美丽，而这只是我们的第一天

这张帅到...

在等车去找碧慧

26号到了~~~~~~

well,很困了。听着这首歌，睡去吧。

气死我，搞到最后embed不到。去土豆听吧。

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/cR1-Wug23xY

zhiwen says..

2009-10-02T01:31:00.001+08:00

"so...v fix that v meet at belgium on 9th..i go there from paris..baby go from uk..u come from rotterdam ?"

when i see this citation, feel so cool. all the memories n the hardship are worthwhile!

group-assignment war

2009-09-30T22:23:00.001+08:00

lol everybody is having problem in group assignment. I am now in the computer room overhearing some kind of calm group-assignment war.

when A states something that is unclear( perhaps he himself doesnt even understand what has been said) and B doesnt get his meaning and ask " what?", A keeps silent although a couple of "what?" were voiced out.(maybe he is trying to avoid giving explanation on something that doesnt make sense).

This makes B got irritated after waiting for like 30 seconds ( got humiliated of course in some sense) and say"man, u dont need drugs,u live in your own universe" while laughing on his own. And A keeps silent again,refusing to respond to B's laughing.

So, this is the typical tension that occurs between group assignment members. I can actually recall that my sister did complaint about his groupmates to me and at that point of time I thought it was no big deal. Now I understand how it feels like.It seems that everybody has to go through this stage. =)

just an update

2009-05-08T17:25:00.000+08:00

just an update
昨天又参加了外围赛后的初赛又是被刷了一刷呵呵

9天的seoultrip 在我人生中是很重大的一课看到的生命的轻

如今课业里case study 剧本电影摄制歌曲创作课等着我的养分

暑假的安排，农村实践或公司实习，回家或不回家，下学期到rotterdam的准备，

要找的人，致翔，baby,manuel,还有rotterdam fim festival里当志愿者的梦想。

清华最近的讲座还有《南京南京》的导演，华谊兄弟的总裁，又是一大罗的人生禁经验分享。

天气也渐渐变热，现时是我的能接受的。穿着在马来西亚平时的装扮，我感觉更贴近家里一些。

今早听李志清让我想念高中小学。

在下周末，我也将知道我未来的路该怎么走，如果那事真发生。

九降风

2009-04-09T03:37:00.000+08:00

繁复的动作可以用很多镜头贴出来~~
小芸翻数学书~~

那个小汤打飞机，阿彦打电话给小芸，超人打电话给小汤，交叠，不错的处理手法

在鸟雀声下的无声

还有一件事：我截图是靠直觉的

嗯。单调的直线行走或是骑车前行，应该有安抚人心的钢琴配乐~

每推开一扇门，可有推进镜头 32：05

宣泄热血的激烈片段 37:30

影片后面一部分，带出了友情事故后大家的低落情绪，看到阿彦的手动，以为是要醒了，谁知道心跳却停止了~~

就觉得曾志伟不该出现在影片内

45：00 很伤感的画面被跳过又转向棒球报道是什么意思呢

棒球少年的梦

年轻的故事不一定要有结局

投出了球，人生的故事继续

片尾音乐是张雨生的“say goodbye"怎能不伤感

words for royston tan's 04:30

2009-02-27T02:09:00.011+08:00

好像有一点慢。知道这部片很久了，但直到上两星期才从新加坡把DVD买回来。

边看边截频边写感想。只是最后的结尾让我措手不及。将百叶窗涂黑，他的世界就这样封闭了吗？自己给自己的解释是导演原本就是要带出一种愁的感觉。这种结尾或许就是要延续这种气息，不让其消散。

小伍剪阴毛、关掉老人们的音乐、猛喝咳药水，JUNG逼真的呕吐、尝试上吊、超久的闭气，看到39：36我已忍不住写下“这部片很多stunt!估计是导演小时候做过或想做没做到的”。电影里表达的讯息和性格，让我觉得很强烈，后来看了关于介绍才知道那是你得特点，so called "bad bo filmmaker"。

最后JUNG离开后的半夜四点半，小伍竟去将时钟的时针和分针粘住。这信号是多么强烈，他企图让时间停住！

1:21:20,关于JUNG的物件随着背景音乐有序地消失，唯独是土地公的橙又多回了两个。这带给了我一丝惊喜，我感觉到了导演的细腻，竟在小细节上作了交代。

整体画面的唯美难以形容，我只有透过截出感动自己的画面以明志。

你在the making 的最后说的话因彻底地道出了所引起的共鸣，所以我记了下来。这些听似煽情的心声，在你浑厚诚恳的声音念出来，很真实。

“我觉得一部对白不多的电影也能感动别人。

因为听不到的声音可以用心来感受
说不出的言语可以用眼神来流露
触摸不到的人可以用回忆来重温

那就是我心里的4点半”

Updated definition of mugging

2008-11-30T14:40:00.001+08:00

Definition
mug (sth) up phrasal verb [M] UK INFORMAL
to study a subject quickly before taking an exam:
I've got to mug up (on) my History before tomorrow's exam.

courtesy of chin keat

http://dictionary.cambridge.org/define.asp?key=52426&dict=CALD

Mugging??

2008-11-27T23:43:00.002+08:00

Erm, for those who are studying in spore,dont totally got assimilated with singlish.

I felt it strongly after my lunch with some friends of mine on Wednesday. They were some exchanged students in my school, SEM( school of economics and management). Btw reflecting back now I realise that we had all of us from different countries.There were

1.Bugger. He is an American Iranian, residing in Finland, holding passports of the said three countries which is kind of unbelievable for me - we then spent some time to discuss about the sense of nationality, question aroused: which will he support if there is a conflict or war(choi~~) between U.S. and Iran? We went further on debate but that's not the point for now.

2. Tziwe. My buddy. As in...He was assigned to me in a so called Buddy programme, being an exchange student in our school. Helped him out from the very beginning of registration stuff, and this and that, and have become good friends for now. He's from Rotterdam, the Netherlands. Yeah you are right,it's Rotterdam Film Festival right on my mind! And he is Wenzhou-nese , and he can listen and speak some cantonese and mandarin, cant write very well though =p.

3. Aaron. A HK guy. Similiarities in us: a Amazed by the high salary of professors in HK. bSpeaks cantonese. Ok lame.

4. Dan.A Thai guy coming from the same school as Tziwe

5. Lastly, a korean senior.girl. Same as me , international student. She is cool in the way that she paused her study after year 2 and went back Korea for some real estate and property related courses,then U.S. for English program, and U.K. for christianity volunteer works. I wanna learn from her. SOMETHINGis currently on my mind.

Well let's come to the point after LONG introduction.

I mean..nothing much la actually.The thing is like that:

We were then on the topic of going back home in winter holidays. Then I was trying to frighten them saying" Owh u guys are gonna spend your time mugging on the New Year eve." And yeah. They can hardly get me. "...Mugging..?" me: yeah, i mean..mug at the book..mugging..rr..studying!

Tziwe looked at me, frowning. And Bugger came to response too saying:" Do u mean u were going to rob something?" =.=|| Before that I insisted that it does exist in dictionary coz I saw alot of ppl using this word, you see( that's the consequences). However, I felt something's wrong and then I was probed to explain: " Oh, it is a term in Singapore though. It's like you're digging your head into books, similiar to when you're finishing a big mug of mushroom soup or milo or whatever, Holla.

Phew. That's the point I have. I mean it's ok to "verb"alise a noun but it doesnt seem to be appropriate when it already has its own meaning in verb. So, got me ?!

Happy Thank's giving.=D

5. to assault or menace, esp. with the intention of robbery.

Thoughts after Youtube

2008-11-26T19:55:00.003+08:00

I feel like coming back for you my

cute

little blogspot. It wasnt my choice to keep u aside it's the bloody stupid block from ccp..now that they set u free im going to visit u as often as i can, promise ya!

My day has been nice being educated with more and professional knowledge of finance and accounting. clean Price NaSdAg NySe Call PrEmiuM SynDicaTed Loan AvOidAble InTerest. hmm. guess that's what I like since I chose it.Anyhow, I just gotta admit that Im freaking outdated with all cool stuffs over the Youtube. I dont knoe there are NiGahiya Kevjumba and HaPpy SLip posting videos with more than 1 million viewers each !

So, think that I should balance myself between mental crippling study and keeping on track with the e-world. and yey I found a great deal friends~! Airasia's throwed out a fascinating ProMotion. I've randomly executed a search, departing on 7th of July and coming home on 7th of August, and it comes to a result where the Total Price would be 1777 bucks including tax! That's awesome! The thing is that I must make decision and book before 31st of November..Darn,that's kinda hard for me this indecisive guy. It would be easier for me if some enthusiastic friend's joining me. HAde PaRk KrisPy CremE LoNdoN eYe CHek SianG freE aCcomodatiOn at Sam's Hse

ohhhhhh.

HOW WOULD IT turn OUT to be

my summer 2009

it wasnt my choice to dream of you

2008-08-18T16:44:00.000+08:00

And, we can’t just wait.

Staring at the ceiling

Reminisce and keep on smiling

This is what u gave me

Though it now seems silly

Background music in brain – shuo by yoga lin

i hope you're happy, and i bet you are .

paiseh

2007-12-28T00:39:00.000+08:00

paiseh long long time didnt update liao.my life in tsinghua is quite happenning actually.but,for same reason i hav to spend the remaining time digging into my books,particularly math.how silly.i hate it most and im spending 90 percent of my time with it.still think im more talented in other things.like...well,nth tim.hehe.

anyway,blogspot is fucking slow.haih.im afraid tat ill abandon this blog very soon. switching to http://defa1026.spaces.live.com/

=]

ill c u guys around in the end of january.

ciaoz

hey 19!! bye 18 =|

2007-10-27T01:27:00.000+08:00

hey there =]

tot it wud b a silent birthday..but eventually everything turns to be pleasing =] didnt think of having frens celebrate for me this time.was jus planning to get myself a cake, a guitar and a choir concert.

so.yeah.start from yesterday nite.received calls from home and talked to every member.den ley woon call.sharp at 12=] and den.xian hui is d 1st one.in 4s1 de ^^mic wish me n chris n louisa on her nick 1st,den greet me ^^ still rmb she gif me a watch as present in form3,if not mistaken...and den,leong hoo and meiping....=] miss u guys.and!!my virtual LAO PO(we was in a group in dong zong international camp as family) text me n greet!! i didnt know that she has my no.,cos nvr tell her(though i posted it for few days).was sooo suprise....

today.9 lebih wake up.1st thing is to do hw.determinant.vendermonde law balablabkla..hate!! work till 12pm.in btwin,voonsien called ,say liao HAPY BURFDAY....line putus.my hp's batt flat =.=,and chat with wei jie.zat lai zat qu.quite nice HOR,wei jie.go hav brunch.and get some info from olympic clss representative.yeah.can b exempted from the test,which the chinese students hav to sit in order to meet the criteria to enter the 1st round ELIMINATION.wow.what a privillege.except paying 1050 yuan monthly for dorm,while they pay 1500 A YEAR.

and den.actually met some msia frens when walking out of d canteen.pei qin n hui you.but stil think hav no point jus telling dem "eh ,today is my bday!!"so we jus bye and i back to my room lo,rushing my hw(copy),no idea liao.still cant figure out d solution after 2 days' nonconcentrating mind sitrring.due today.

after tat, 3:20 clas till 6:40.after that,cycle like FAS N FURIOUS to peking u for my choir concert!! cold cold cold~~ d wind fu fu fu ~~~ jus to c them,ppl from Wells Cathedral School.

so geng~~~~recorded down in video =]

watch tat with 佟玲.she is from 北京体育大学knew her when i go beijing in april.she was the volunteer guide when i climb the greatwall.and we keep in touch.she brought me buy clothes ah eat nice cuisine in beijing.nice fren =] initially onli her to celebrate with me.

10 9 !!!
but when the concert ends,mu ie and dai ga jeh reach my shoulder from behind.HI!! i say.dai ga jeh.same skul with me de.mu ie is beida de.so when i offer to ride her back tsinghua half n hour later, i told her tong ling was goin to celebrate for me.and for sure,they joined!! and another two woman.cathy(from taiwan,prof) and ms lim(phd student,teache of msia maktab)=] yeah.they sing song for me.malay n chinese.in the nice cafe,apple pie as cake =] suits cappucino!

the candle with tan45 de signifies MINUS..so 2(10) - 1 =19 =]

when back to tsinghua,went xiao xiang de room(xiaoxiang=msia fren,same yr de).aiya.havent introduce the rest 2 tsinghua mates.same yr with me de.da guang n peizhen.will show later.saw a CAKE!!!arrr.....i told weixiang tat i wanna slack today.he ask y.i say lim beh bday.den in phone be4i back from peking u ,he ask, u buy liao cake boh?i said no.he said,den suan la,jus come our room chat, we hav no cake for u.but at last!!! c this !!! touched..was i ? erm,rational de being touched.19 le.hoho.crap.

wei xiang blackmailed the ppl in supermarket to make one when they say they dont hav cake left..........awwwwww..........so gan ren

with liu ying

group photo

so after that,i mean now, and after blog,i hav to slp.8:15 assemble.to perform in main building of tsinghua.西南联大70周年纪念合唱表演。explain more lata.it's 2.

my 19 bday is memorable,same as 18 de.i told yik cai,las yr's party was jus like happened yesterday,stil rmb he bc prepare for me.lap chairs..bake cake.awww...frens...miss u all.

last but not least, thx

my family,baby,ley woon, mic,gu zhe, xinmin ,vs,yensuan,lh,mp,wei jie,vs,sinsing(didnt forget u this time),yuen yee shi jie,xin min,ardy,kelvin,wei hong,hylda,jess,xinmin,yikcai,xian hui,yuan mun, arriss ng,hei ban wen,lao po,hui sunn,san san,evangeline,da guang,wei xiang,liu ying, and all of my classmates, joe,and rong kang,and all my current classmates.they wont be able to c blogspot,so can b ommitted.lol.and pei zhen n ah pak n so on....all frens in beijing.and miqi and huan and sean girl n kuroda n so on.......love u guys....included those who r not listed in.blur d.

with lots of love ,

eric defa huat huat fatt ge

在这里的第二个月圆

2007-10-26T01:56:00.000+08:00

最近树开始落叶了，我才真正感觉到你，秋天。

第一次在异地度过生日，感觉特平稳，可能是没太大期望的缘故吧，没期望多少口头上的祝福，更别说礼物。太久没探望文字，觉得自己的神经开始变得“大条”了。不懂得很好地叙述自己的心情，因为根本没去感觉它，没去过问。这也是少更新的原因。

　　在这里认识了好多朋友，从最普遍的韩国、日本、法国、美国、越南、缅甸、泰国、印尼、英国、瑞典，到吉尔吉斯坦、多米尼克的都有。还有一两个国家我搞不清楚名字。但是，都是表面的交流吧，也可能来这里的人都会受到清华的“严谨刻苦”学风所影响，忙于努力学习，没时间认识更多，包括我，生日的今天还得赶作业。也许很多人觉得没什么，但这却是我不习惯的。

能送给自己的是看一场瑞典合唱团的演出，一个蛋糕，一个吉他。还有，一颗日趋成熟的心。

我会怀念2007年，因为我度过了一个漫漫的18岁长假，一个常让我惦起的时光，那不只是一个简单的我所谓的迎接人生新里程碑之前的充电期。他的实质意义是，每当我疲惫时，供我憩息的世界。

thx bryan donalven =]

谢谢全部祝福我的人=]

as requested by lilian =]

2007-10-07T01:31:00.000+08:00

经过1个月的中国化后，你将会看见更多的中文=]

照片是重点。

骑车骑到一半停下来拍的照片。如果是以前的我，应该出了很多“自行车祸”吧。
这地点很不错，后来我听他们说这叫情人坡。

还有拍照的可爱小娃。

结果，我在坡上的树下睡了一个小时的午觉=]

摄于9月20日

eh, i tot blogspot is blocked in china ?

2007-09-09T02:29:00.000+08:00

你

2007-08-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

想你的时候
像掉进一个黑洞
这一句已经不applicable了
可
当我打出你熟悉的中文晚安时
不知觉地双手抚住双臂
心揪着
害怕

一篇文章
两种思念
今晚睡还没搬走的tilam
（维豪昨天过夜铺的）
空着床
只为回忆另一个你
身处不同纬度的你

Sorry, dear parents 郑重道歉

2007-07-28T01:04:00.000+08:00

For parents,
Regarding the title stated above, I must apologise for this unpleasant matter, which happened under the lack of proper consideration. I should have not revealed my blog's address and set up this bad example to your kids. I dont mean it. It was the only post with such annoying foul words. I am well understand that I should take my status and the school's image into consideration, although I am just a temporary teacher. Please be assured that this is not a bad blog, though. And about the piggies, what I wish to clarify is that I am SO HAPPY to be a class teacher. It's like having my own kids and I feel the obligation as a teacher. I would like to interprete the previous title as 可爱的小猪，the bad thing is that the linked picture was lost and led you to a misinterpretation. I have repost it for a clear acknowledgement. It is illustrated by jimmy(几米），the renowned illustrator of 向左走，向右走. Again I have to emphasize that only with the passion and dream only will I have myself teaching in Choong Wen before starting my uni life in oversea. The FACT is that my students are smart. =] after rattling so much, I would like to thank to whom-it-may-concern for giving me, a 19-year-old boy, this opportunity to be responsible for my own behaviour, especially as a teacher.Last but not least, sorry or any inconvenience caused, please delete my blog's address from your computer. Your forgiveness will be much appreciated. Thank you. =]

For friends,
LOL. Im sure u guys would be suprised by this post.to make the matter simpler, i have given my blog add to a std 5 clas under request without much consideration and break my own privacy.the only post with foul words had been spotted and yes,i have been complained. = = bad luck me, the 1st time i wrote such things and got caught,which i am not supposed to.stupid me. have not been updated my blog nearly one month ady.i did blog but in my diary book,realli caught up with tons of books,which are to be marked.and prepare examination questions. and collect fees and meeting and teaching.it is a complete teacher training.am contented with this job. u will read more later when i finish the meaningful job. well, the feeling is diff with when i back skul to c my teachers.they r my colleagues now, so amazing it is. a nice period of time to recall the past buried memories,though i dont hav much time to,stand still at somewhere where i can d PAST us (playing or reading ,etc). anyway,i did try. write more nez time. ciao...

7.7.what a WONDERFUL day

2007-07-08T01:20:00.001+08:00

i hav a class of cute piggies in 4W :]

2007-07-07T02:23:00.001+08:00

p/s:
喜欢几米的画风不是因为它的“向左走，向右走”一炮而红，而是，我怀疑，他是“儿童乐园”，一本伴我度过幼稚园时期的宁静午后，一本让我当时在梦里第一次梦见巫婆的月刊画者。

"一个建筑在斜坡上的安静住宅区里，我乘在车子的后座，望着窗外的风景，突然我经过了一个平凡的住家，可是一座古堡自屋顶延升了上高空，塔尖里坐着一位监视着四周围的老巫婆，专抓小孩的坏巫婆。仿佛记得她那张欲向我施咒语的奸笑之脸，当时卷缩在车座底下的我。"

逐渐长大后，才发觉那只是梦，因为，老师告诉我们世界上没有巫婆。不然，我还真地将它视为童年生活记忆的一部分呢。

What has to be broken before it can be used?

2007-07-07T02:16:00.000+08:00

hrm.my student ask me de. i blank tat time, common sense though. =]

当你的生命不再美丽时

2007-07-07T01:30:00.000+08:00

当你觉得自己的生命不再美丽时
将你的家收拾收拾
让他来个窗明几净
一尘不染
那么
你就会发现
诶
我有个舒服的窝呢
好幸福哟
--看看报章上流离失所的海啸灾民，摇摇头，很认真地叹声“可怜”，然后迅速收起来－－

如果还是觉得很烦躁
那么
泡个冷水澡喝杯鲜奶
听爵士
那么
你会为空气被抹上一层慵懒的奢华贵气
而感自豪
嗯
不错吧
觉得自己浑身像足了上等人呢
－－再看看那些伊拉克被虐待的孤儿，苟延残喘地萎缩在孤儿院地上，还真像自己在冷气房里睡觉的模样－－

很有可能
你仍觉得有一些不足之处
对
你没猜错
那是为人子孙的灵魂在内心呼唤
你是想要的
想要在礼拜早晨
陪爷爷奶奶抑或外公外婆
运动聊天吃早茶
即使他们说的
总让你蹙眉　抓头脑　耸肩
甚至　目无表情
－－又突然想起自己以前在四个当中其一的丧礼哭着忏悔，怨恨为什么没让他（她）享够福就走了，然后，心情平复了，好，日子恢复正常，工作读书玩乐，等待下一次的“真情流露”--

当你觉得你的生命不再美丽
就捧起七彩色盘
在你的生命里绘色吧
在你呼出最后一口气之前
都有权力能力
不让生命带悔

如果我能爱你

2007-06-25T00:40:00.000+08:00

如果我能爱你
我保证！！
一场浪漫疯狂
回忆无穷的爱
假如我能爱你
义无反顾！
嗯
假如我能爱你
倘若握紧你手
手心传过温热
仅此而已
没有触电感觉
你定察觉

finally, it's u, Tsinghua

2007-06-19T01:50:00.000+08:00

today im very happy ah.but very calm la.i confirmed my place in the economics and management skul in tsinghua afer all.yeah.my hard work pay off.no need to struggle.no need to tossing n turning on the bed whole nite till get imsomnia liao.hrm,y calm leh? cos go pray pray, got one deities said i must get it de, so im kind of assured.until i called the admission office again and get the confirmation. hell, Italk is quite nice to use de wor,i called xxx times liao using a rm30 one and now stil got 10 over bugs. yeah my mum can call me very often liao.

and actually do u guys know y i less update my blog? i finally get myself the answer. in fact i hav few drafts now but all incomplete. It's all about lagging com+old keyboard+insensitive mouse.frens who ever used my com will know how i treat dem cruelly.haha.type eng is indeed faster de.

and when i manage to post it up,it will normally be the long, and UNORGANISED one.haha.if u feel confuse feel free to be updated frm me personally.;].

well,watched "my period/days"?(not sure) in government department". i laugh my ass off(correct preposition)...relli creative lehthe liang zhi qiang.hrm.i now like spore drama+music+movie ady.it potrays the current society's phenomenon,yet it is "manufactured" into an art piece.not like tsai ming liang's one.i like his idea,what he wanna address,i understand very well,but i think he could hav done more better by adding some artistic sense in it.HEY.y r d ppl going to study cinematography, when u d director jus ask the cinematographer to switch on the machine, and jus left the cam there,a fixed scene,0skill has been used.totally unpolished things can b just a raw idea.i hav many la...if liddat de quality meet the satisfactory liao.

ei, swerve frm topic liao.erm, tok bout study,math,i will xxxx my ass xxx -(i dunno how to use d phrase, sth help me with it,gif u credit) to brush up my math,to prove malaysia boleh to the china bitch who underestimates me. haha, haih.i hope i will really develop the passion to handle the math la,whe i get to know how to apply them,specifically.yeah i will do well then.

then now,hav to reject monash n peking liao lo.yeah.i like the 快感。finally.i regret i didnt do tat be4 tat phucking NUS do it to me.sending a sarcastic letter to kick my ass again.FUCK them.

haih, monash i apply film and tv de,if i was born with silver spoon,no nid worry for life, sure will choose it la.but now im aspired to fully equip myself with broad economics knowledge,investing tricks...earn myself a sum of money to pursue my dream,after 30..after all, the journey of artists hav never been smooth be4 they get famous.for me, i admit i couldnt stand poverty or insufficient $.i would not be able to create a masterpiece tat time for sure, or mayb can, immerse in my very own world,chuang zuo chuang zuo, then strive from poverty until mati kong kiao,starved.haha. dream need to b supported by $$. if u hav money ah, create liao ur own work,use ur own money publisize la,no nid beg company gif u a damn chance la,no nid to betray own bodies.haha.think too much.

haha.srry if u get nth from my post.slp luuuu.

im memorising every single place that i spotted to be one of the settings of my film.
not jotting it down.hope i will stil rmb, one day, when i decide to put the camcorder up my shoulder.

听说南方从来不会有寂寞

2007-05-24T00:54:00.000+08:00

像行尸走肉地过了几天后，今天，感觉踏实多了。前几天应该是个从思绪紊乱到方向明确的过渡期。

最近，平平稳稳地上我的创作班，一步一脚印地往理想迈进；

survey的工作，也能够转到些小钱，时间伸缩性强，让我在需要时从工作得到寄托：几个小时不停地尝试[拨电]，被人盖电话，被上司弹；但过程都不乏一些有趣的事，包括遇上那种年老不得志/怀才不遇的uncle,访问之余还得听他们诉苦；和一些在那里进行internship的ums(university malaysia sabah)共事，不会很闷。

然后，在人生规划的方面，ie.选大学+“幻想"未来工作方向心里似乎有了个谱，不会太执著le.

简单的说，我在掌握我的每一天，即便是驾车从一地点到目的地的途中，也会思考接下来要做的事。我喜欢这种事情或状态在自己掌握之中的感觉。

享受着这段长假的同时，我感觉充实，心里想着上了大学后的忙碌，更格外珍惜这段我对外宣称为沉淀期的日子。

在努力地拨时间陪婆婆和外婆，努力地整理记忆，除了写，开始要将从2004年开始拍的照片洗出来，因为，我没有做过这个的动作。=)

明天，会去in house college参加那个“尽 show“歌唱比赛，小小的一个，去年也参加过，那时候是带着睡觉时落枕，扭chen的颈项曲唱“重伤”的。这次没选，也没练，就选了“飞行943“，但我从来没有这首歌（陈家凯的版本)，只是曾在myfm听过;最近不直觉一直哼起这旋律，所以选了它，希望可以唱好。

真得很喜欢新传媒的电视剧，除了古装的，AEC七点档的我几乎都有追，每一次都爱上了它的主题曲，好像"情来运转”、现在播着的“星闪闪”等，但就是找不到mp3..各位仁兄帮忙留意一下好不，谢啦...

片尾曲部分呈现的剧照带有很强烈的讯息，很喜欢，但我找不到。

晚安。

Survey notification

2007-05-23T01:55:00.000+08:00

This is about a survey opportunity offered by a market research agency which I work at as a part-timer.In the following dates,survey activities will be held at the CITITEL HOTEL,MIDVALLEY for the radio stations stated below.IF you are one of the listeners of the respective radio stations and meet the criterias(gender and age group),and you think you will have time on these dates,PLEASE SEND ME A FRENSTER MSG OR MSN ME AT teck_huat_yee@hotmail.com. to register as one of the respondents.YOU WILL BE PAID RM18 after the survey.

Though it is not much, but why not try and earn a meal if u are supposingly or routinely to APPEAR at midvalley at those time,in those dates.:)

16/6/07(SAT) 10AM-1PM Sinarfm
Gender:m/f Age: 35-44

16/6/07(SAT) 3.30PM-6.30PM Sinarfm
Gender:m/f Age: 35-44

17/6/07(SUN) 10AM-1PM XFresh
Gender:m/f Age: 12-15

17/6/07(SUN) 3.30PM-6.30PM XFresh
Gender:m/f Age:16-19

18/6/07(MON) 7PM-10PM Mixfm
Gender:m/f Age:25-34

19/6/07(TUES) 7PM-10PM Mixfm
Gender:m/f Age:25-34

20/6/07(WED) 7PM-10PM Myfm
Gender:male Age:25-34

21/6/07(THURS) 7PM-10PM Myfm
Gender:female Age:25-34

23/6/07(SAT) 10AM-1PM hitz.fm
Gender:male Age:15-24

23/6/07(SAT) 3.30PM-6.30PM hitz.fm
Gender:female Age:15-24

24/6/07(SUN) 10AM-1PM Era fm
Gender:male Age:25-34

24/6/07(SUN) 3.30PM-6.30PM Era fm
Gender:female Age:25-34

25/6/07(MON) 7PM-10PM THR
Gender:m/f Age:20-35

26/6/07(TUES) 7PM-10PM THR
Gender:m/f Age:20-35

27/6/07(WED) 7PM-10PM LITE FM
Gender:m/f Age:45-49

28/6/07(THURS) 7PM-10PM LITE FM
Gender:m/f Age:45-49

HELP ME TO SPREAD IT THX~~

auntie kuan

2007-05-22T01:52:00.000+08:00

so pretty.....

@ drooling @

this is kuan lilian =)

如果连自尊都已经不再需要这个世界什么爱你买不到

2007-05-11T02:19:00.000+08:00

hrm.i think i will spend most of my time in midvalley for the following 3 months.im not working as full-timer there,i will b there becos:
1. i start on my 3-month gym in california fitness
2. in conjuntion of perkara satu, i took up a part time job as survey officer(it's a more-comfortable version of luck attempter, cos msian jus hav the tendency,or shud i say habit,ya,their habit,to hang up calls from stranger=calls of surveying or selling)
3.continue my abandoned acoustic guitar lesson

p/s:for perkara dua,dalam kalangan rakyat msia,i wanna emphasize on those AUNTIE,suri rumahtangga-hsewife(in case u dunno),their excuse r just STUPID:
a.er...i come here play onli de,this is not my hse la..ooo..BYE BYE!!!---du.du.du.du....

b.wei hu r u la im frying fish la not free! hai3 gam2 la1 k---du.du.du.du...

c.Me:I'm eric calling from Synovate..a survey agency
Aunty:(shit!!)eh i wan to take k of my children la~~
Me:hey wait! jus take u 10 mins onli ma...(smiling hard)
Aunty:u knoe ar,in 10 mins my child could fall down frm @#$$#
Me:oh lidat nvm la BY.....
Aunty: du.du.du.du....
Me:YE......
!!! nyama

d.boh3 lat4 tell anymore liao.

but good earning too de,depends on wat project u doing la,im doing one about bank service de, den my interview will b terminated v fast if d ppl keep saying tat they KONG3 DOU1 LONG1 n gif false info,eg.indicating their ans of monthly income< 2000, den another unsuccessful call,as they dont meet the criteria as interviewee.

watever.hav lots of things tat i wanna do(buy to b specific).sony handycam promotion come again.doubt if i can successfully buy one--HDR-UX5E or DCR-SR300E--any comments on brands n model tell me pls..hope can b lin2 jiao4 in my primary skul as well..had been saying about tat be4 graduate...

slpslp,it's 2:37
it will make u to hav low blood pressure de slp so late...
mine ar 106-66 onli(standard 120-88)
hav to do more cardio excercise eg. swimming cycling n jogging
and my fat ratio is v FIT ( lilian dont envy)
and Vo2 max and stamina is at optimum level too..
means mayb cant run too fast but can keep d pace.
hao la.wan an ge4 wei4.nite nite.hug hug.

AND AND!!

today my grandma bday.wish her gd health n love her.
brought her to cinema,a place which she never stepped in be4.
i succeeded in taking both my popo n waipo to cinema..so CHURN MAN!
we watched Dancing lion however.
a bit sien n abit fei4 and abit funny.
n went TOU3 LONG3, lam tak weng's restaurant. the dumplings very nice!!got soup inside de,yet not so exp.ramen can try oso.
--chih y advertise for him--

nite.so cheong hei.finish it la.hrm.okay.nite.miss someone.

RanDOm

2007-05-07T01:10:00.000+08:00

i hav jus 83 post.started to write since end of 2004.stil hav clear picture of tat time.nth actually jus wonder how yik cai n vs can reach 100 posts so fast.for yikcai, his posts= titles.XD

am so reluctant to start a relationship in reality yet am able to unconsciously or irrationally engage with sth virtually.why.

feel so unorganised.i have been i mean,through these few months.am going to take up a part-time job in midvalley,in associated with my fitnessc session in california fitness for 3 months.practise piano.and.day dreaming.about filming.again.

明明是想靠近却孤单地黎明

2007-04-25T00:48:00.000+08:00

hrm.it's a matter of 冲动 for me to write or blog.

AIYA.

dunno wan write wat.

rupa-rupanya i just desired to make a new post to mention the 1st sentence.haha.

okla.relieved today, after wrote a shitty long email to the relevant department of peking u,i am allowed to b interviewed via phone.yea, can save 2k over.plus i

think it's not economic to fly there again purposely.know wat, the peking uni jus selected 139 students to proceed to the interview session out of 1000 over candidates.but they r going to interview 35 ppl in 1 and a half hour.so, i dont c the good reason point to conduct this stupid 2nd-round game lo.tapis till so few ppl liao(make other 2 of my fren cant get in)stil hav to screen mer? stupid having-poor-administration so-called world ranked u.

fyi, they started this rule from 2007,this yr onwards.and they didnt inform us when it wil b conducted."nvm lo,i got stay there one more week ma after exam,go office ask la" i tell myself.manatau,d ppl jus say not sure,left all things to b uncertainties,including the result announcing date n interview date.what makes ppl angry is tat,when im back in msia liao,check d result online, and den got linked to another page regarding the interview.面试日期：2007年4月28日。shocked when(evening of 20th) c d date.it was jus one week away! made me so tan3 gai1.

went dongzhong on sat to ask for help but they say peking u not friendly de ask me to request myself,ask for another solution instead of flying there i mean.make me so worry.anyway, i think i dont intend to say this de.dunno y.like i hav no topic but to rattle on this stupid matter.hrm let's tok about what happened the next on saturday,tat day la.

i took ktm back to midvalley n wait for sis to fetch me to bkt jalil.i DATED pik hui for good charlotte's concert.hehe.weird rite.hai hao la.we had fun.

half-written on 25/4.now onli got is posted.cant bear saving a draft anymore.

it's my habit to dedicate this song to myself each time i go to music cafe.
tues nite, as usual i walked along jalan imbi to hang tuah lrt station.den feel hungry.sienz.used to hav rong kang's company.but since he has someone fetching him home.i jus being left alone.so,decided to go wing's to heal my stomach.eat,carried away by the guitarzz,back to conscious,finish meal,back.

燃烧岁月

2007-04-23T04:44:00.000+08:00

so zadao my 1st post now is not bout my recent trip,cos of some emergency case.well, i think so.

自从你出走离开我已经不想缅怀
如今你诚实自白这心灵深陷忆海
仿佛在不同年代手机已形如残骸
在你正失眠的现在
我愿隔着时差等待

你醒过来

别把自己的未来看得太狭隘

2007-03-29T15:34:00.000+08:00

haha...tok so much craps..jus wanna tell myself and everyone of u guys...有梦就敢敢去追!
watch 鲁豫有约 2mr!! 30/3/07 10:10 am :)

唉..天注定

2007-03-28T12:29:00.000+08:00

昨天很emo,看了sepet(yasmin ahmad 的电影），被其触动，不知觉地发现自己对未来的憧憬。希望自己的职业也是个产生作品的人，去赢得别人的一些些共鸣。结果，讲来讲去，我其实是想将我的回国日期改到11号,因为在matta fair买机票的时候，没有发觉到新秀大赛的吉隆坡面试日期是落在14和15号。而当时，12，13，14，15号有没有回马的机位了，所以就选了16号，还因为可以独自多探索几天而感兴奋。怎知道，当姑姐叫我一起去参加的时候，我才恍然大悟，真是心痛到捶心肝！还一度想说，是不是能在30号和31号到柔佛去试音...真是有点不理智，2号晚上就要去北京考试了，不用读啊！

其实，都清楚自己的水准，最多也只能进到初赛吧，要发歌手梦（注意，不是明星）的话只能从创作下手，嗯，就从我的文字开始吧，作词，创作班考试也通过了，将进入term 2..（不好意思，这整段都只是鱼的快乐幻想~~=.=随他吧

结果，昨天又没读到书咯，原因其一也是因为看了sEPET，作了很多动作，要与大家分享（下个post会看到）。刚才，载了大姐去大学，跟妈妈吃了好吃的怡保鸡丝河粉（抵他们赚的，真的好吃到不行，鸡饭也是一样，本来没有胃口吃早餐的，注意啦，它就在CATHOLIC 公教中学的外面！

然后，回到家外面的MAMAK档旁洗车，题外话：话说我们的车是第一驶进去的，洗了约莫十分钟，就陆陆续续有车来光顾，不到一会儿就有5辆了！妈妈说：不洗不洗，我们一来了就有那么多人跟着，真奇怪..."其实这话题我们讨论过很多次了，因为每次我们一家人踏入一间门可罗雀的餐馆后，就会客似云来，服装店也那样..这次不是想太多，因为历史告诉了我，且每次实在明显到很难不发觉。我说：好啊，自己不旺，带旺人也不错，母亲白着眼笑了。

在她到一个邻居的家去八（是谈天啦，不孝子），回来，想了又想，是在按耐不住，拿了机票单据，打去旅行社问,该航程需要加多少钱。

我：我记得你们的人说过，要改日期，要付RM50的手续费对吧？
旅行社小姐：嗬嗬，先生，不止呢，那只是手续费，AIRLINE CHANGES PENALTY, ONE SECTOR RM300,幸好你只是要改回程的..(幸好？我听了数目就死心了啦！！）ahem..还有，要付airfare changes,意思是说，你在matta fair省了多少，就多付回多少，因为行情不一样了...

!@#$%^% OKKKKK !@#$%^
我投降

我以乱音加高八度的噪音加傻笑加手舞足蹈（家里没人），喊叫：“天注定咯，天注定！！18岁的挑战没了咯！”来抚平我的情绪..火速的写了这篇post!

其实，也学了一样东西吧，其实早就懂了，只是这次是我的信念更为坚定。就是：凡是考虑一件事情时，先将自己赶到绝路，做好最坏的打算，待确定考虑的事情有了发展的可能性后，才去实行，不然多想也是没用的。

但，我想，有一件事应该是例外的吧，没错的话，那档事应该叫爱情。
要拥有它，凭的是一股冲动，对，不然为何英文趁它为CRUSH.

附这几天爱上的一首歌。

没资格写关于昨天的日记

2007-03-27T01:58:00.000+08:00

没资格写属于昨天的日记。
因它只属于昨天的你。

hmm...late night again.tagged by gu zhe so write 2mr lo...2am d...called lilian and chatted bout 1 hour..zZZ nie

U.S. vs BEIJING ...FiGhT !!@#$%^

2007-03-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

recently, oways out with no camera by my hand..plain text seem a lil bit boring.as my words r not tat kind inspiring oso de..hehe.

went University Malaya las nite, saturday nite.hrm, it's a charity concert organised by AIESEC UM, under the programme named Young Visionaries. bcos lack of audience, so under the begging of da4 jie3, all of us went n support xia lor....
to be continued...jus now stop to chat..

ozarks called...got the scholarships ady...dilemma liao.
beijing how ler....?
who got wei kang de hp no. in us...or her gf's ? wan ask more....
zZZZZ
c ya 2mr

RoJaK 啰也

2007-03-24T14:20:00.000+08:00

hmm.saturday noon.streaming 阿沁's nw album online.lazy to study ne.9 days left.
the day be4 yesterday,went sunway rb to sing k wif gu zhe.onli 2 of us.sing sing sing.1pm to 7pm.so gan dong ler when she sing 真的 by 张韶涵。nez time hoh, others would have to pay hundreds per pax to listen to her.hehe.

and until 6pm jiang,go out buy mineral water for thirsty gu zhe.when i was on the escalator, ther's one reckless indian women, who didnt hold his son's hand when they were escalating, jus let him follow behind.and the cute indian boi boi like to play wif the automated stairs,den he lost balance and nearly LUK down~~rolling rolling~fortunately i was at behind of him,so i was like superman,use one hand tahan him from LUK down lor.cos another hand holding mineral bottle.hehe.so xia si ren. and know wat, the mother was so ignorant, didnt even know wat was happenning, and jus had her eyes on the boutiques.no use de mom.

and nite, went阿姨de hse lor, outstation again.hav to take care of my cousin.nite,when slp wif grandma,i told him tat i hav to study so much bout china's history, frm 鸦片战争 to 八国联军 to 抗日时期..den when she heard bout JAPANESE,get raged lo.and describe the pain they suffered tat time..hav to run away from merciless killing.there was once,onli her siblings n her stay in hse while parents out to market.and den, japanese approach their residential area and go door by door to search for victim..she was so scared and legs trembling while listening to the door knocking sound...nasib baik god bless dem.she said,it's just like happened yesterday. and hor, forcing ppl to drink gallons of water till full ,and den step on their stomach till burst, this kind of case heard mant times liao, but feel so real listening these from her.

and yesterday. badminton and siwmming day.under persuasion of cousin bro n sis, decided to bring dem go for badminton lor.my cousin bro was so active lo,dunno how to say zong zhi very cute when play.we found so many expired candies inside the racquet holder.den 开球 and smack them one by one out of the indoor badminton court through the windows up high.act stupid and scream 2gether wif dem.relli happi.and den i suggest go swimming lo.but no trunk wor.ahem.no peduli so much.no ppl swim at tat time.haha.terus go wif underwear.dark colour de so nvm lo.hehe.fun fun playing wif kids..

10th of march.grace's wedding.

have a little faith in me

2007-03-22T01:21:00.000+08:00

happy belated bday for wen xuan.accustomed to this pronounciation liao.not voon sien.ha.

today,went china embassy to apply the china visa BY MYSELF.kind of proud.on such trivial matter.haha.my dad oways underestimated his son.blame me for not willing to pay tat rm20 administration fees and let ppl gao dim for me.so what?! jus wanna gif myself a try ma.reached there after stopped 3 times n "tumpang tanya".actually i was oredi at jalan ampang, jus tat it is so god-damn-hell long so i hav to identify the right way lor.matter of left or right.finally reached there.p/s: i cannot tok wif my mum while driving de.made me passed the parking site so can onli park at roadside.worry saman summore.ishh.

after tat, suggested to go klcc for brunch wif mum and offered to take her into kinokuniya.want to let her experience xia the nice atmosphere of studying inside there lo.jazz.well-temperatured ac.sunray shines on body through French wondows.i wan her to experience wat i do..eventually i bought nth but she came back wif two recipes.one of dem is 100 egg gastronomy.my favourite yo.yummy.

den nth much else lo.keep pick up n slow down n pick up n slow down in order while rushing to Catholic to fetch sis for bm tuition.abit late cos bkt bintang there sesak ma.gimme lian3 se4 see yet i wish her" bu xi yu kuai".where to find this kind of brother.XD

erm.yesterday.finish term 1 liao.the so called professional music composing course provided by lee wei song music class.got 79.5 for d exam.hey music is about art.y dont make it 80.3 circle ther so pretty. baka teacher.

2mr go take the remaining photostat copies and get d accessories as mentioned in d las post frm d nice teacher.den hang out wif bakal doctor gu zhe.sing k.wish her success in ATQ den i can b her jing li ren liao.promise since form4 i think.haha.

nite.hug hug.warm.zZZ

开始喜欢上一个人

2007-03-19T23:36:00.001+08:00

此一个人不是人。是　alone.bersendirian.ji geh lang.honjaitda.
hrm.now. raining + ac + fm + simple supper = hwooosh what a night.
relli appreciate this kind of relaxing life.however it ends soon.

今天，到学校拿北大入学考试的材料来复印。要开始读了咯。还以为资料不多，所以才提早到北京，以取得更多资料复习。mana tau, 看到徐月凤从广播mic前的橱将整一千张的notes拿出来时，我差点晕去！又不让我早几天拿！只能接过来，然后傻笑 =.=|| 然后，去到LH LIM 的办公室找她，因为去年她知道我要去北京时，说他的哥哥在北京工作，然后怎样怎样，又问我几时去，很是热心。虽然已有一班在校外租房子的学长收留我了，但我还是假假问一下，怎知道，她说：“那里有YMCA"　　　倒....　但他又介绍一些天才同学让我认识咯，也有说会看一看她哥有没有出外公干...好像很厉害的咯，有跟林毅夫开过会的咧！

然后，最开心的是跟一个国语老师聊天。不知道你们还记不记得，初二有代过moral课的..很爽朗的那个！知道我要与北大念经济，谈了很多，但不是那些客套的prospect 问题，而是告诉我许多生活上要注意的小事（她１２月刚从那里旅行回来）。例如，那里空气干燥，晚上睡觉时要让水龙头的水细流，以润湿空气...又说那里的王府井小吃街（到北京的必去之处）很多东西吃，什么羊脑啦，冰糖葫芦啦，还说可以讲价的！５串十元，还是一串有很多粒的那种她那种七情上面的表情，眼神里流露的，是一种诚恳，让我觉得，窝心。代课老师罢了。还有，她还叫我过几天去找她，她要借我贴身的passport和钱财收纳带，还有moisturizer.够力好人。好人到别人孩子将她的小学女儿椅子拉开，使之跌倒，校方要记大过，她还替他求情。你讲leh.

反观，高三班主任黄玉兰，我反而看到也不会上前打招呼。并没有发生过什么事让我耿耿于怀，以前的发生的事，回想只会淡笑，但实在没有兴趣跑前去假假应酬。哈。反而我不懂为什么全部讨厌LH LIM,虽然她以前的作风（现在应该没变）有时会惹人抗议，但她说的每一句话，是那么直接，不会有任何“弦外之音”。哈。怎么毕业了几个月，才来写往事？

话说回头，我们谈天到一半时，　chin suan 进来了。她又送chin suan从沙巴带回来的辣椒，每个老师都有一小罐，那种分享的快乐，真得很好。又说，terengganu 的dungun有一个很美　的地方，形容到好像是七大奇观那样。哈哈。不知道去了北京一趟过后，还有没有机会在国内来一次自然探索之旅。谁得空的？我从matta fair 拿了很多cuti cuti malaysia 的资料...看了酱多好玩的，突然不想出国念书了。：）

遇到谋政和..死火，暂时忘记名字，妍莉的男朋友啦。又遇到陈可欣，身材还是一样好，哈哈，全职做excel咯，很天真可爱的已婚２００５年班主任兼bio老师。祝福你。１０月来找我她说。

她载我出mutiara后，悲惨故事来了。首先，我去剪头发。ahem..sing~~~我剪短我的发，剪短了长发，不用再被爸爸骂了~~~heee.头发剪了，配我的粗框眼镜还不错。剪的同时，我的资料在被复印。一张４sen.因为没有料到，没带够钱，４５.3 的复印费给不起，让我很懊恼，我于是建议将正本留下，给部分钱当deposit.女人答应了。但当我拿出１０块给她时，那竟用惊讶的眼神说“不可以啦，酱你只可以部分的复印本走！”严重给她炸到，说有人试过复印了5本书，结果没来拿bla bla bla..结果又挖多５块钱给她，差点没钱搭车..我像是酱无聊兼老人痴呆meh ? 真想一巴跟她slap 过去..

最重要的是，要回家时，call 妈妈电话就没电了，又不想看人脸色借电话，只好用public phone 咯。十几年没用了。又要等几个休假出来的菲佣打电话去酒店，沟通到很困难酱，好像跟“顾客”约时间，但看清楚他们的年龄，样貌，身材，又好像不太可能..XD 结果jalan ipoh 又塞车，让妈妈等了半小时，然后去4点多的pasar malam买东西吃，等妈妈买菜的时候和雯雯吃渌渌，以前好像没有吃过，至少中学时代没有。@.@

看完“宫”了。每个画面都是唯美的照片。

谢谢收看。

再会。

bi li ba la

2007-03-12T15:25:00.000+08:00

what happened to me ?
i pour SHOKUBUTSU on my toothbrush today...
doing nth in hse again.
watching 父子...
so much sex scene...
grwww....
made my mom beh tahan and said" off it lar..."
so paise
hehe
suma=全部
diu=aaron keep saying tat

拨电话到北京大学留学办公室
才发现要到北京考入学试..@.@

lee hom lap u lap u

2007-03-05T02:50:00.000+08:00

u rock my world and soothe my heart.will be your fans forever.
haha.few more years later can berkerjasama with u.
so don worry =p
i used up my tiny spaces of 256mb jus to record videos during his concert.
will upload one by one.
WILL.defa de will.
i oso wonder.yea.me.defa.wonder.hoho.
damn the organiser swtich the venue frm merdeka stadiumto bkt jalil.
i tot it was not a big deal until barbie send me de seating structure las nite.
holy fcuking shit very pang bian ah our seat!!
haizz...ren ming lor.
but the 1st song GAI SHI YING XIONG,i ended up by dealing the seating problem with 3 ppl with half-serious manner sambil stop and turn my head back and catch his performance. they claimed their seat had been zhan4 ju4 oso.say me LATE summore??!!c u this student quite qing xiu, hou2 mei3 hou2 mao3,say liddat?i hav numbered seat de lor..fuck u!that was all caused by an UNCIVILISED sudience after all. lee hom, feel ashamed to have such fans hor.

and it's 3:19 and jus finished typing recommendation letter for MYSELF in order to apply for beijing university..haha liu hui hua asked me to do so de.then onli let headmaster sign.qiao qiao tell u guys la,i got go search 4beijing film academy lorr,but family sure don accept me to go study de...c if can go beijing,den onli take winter classs.hekhek.
but aiz.2mr get interview by the university of ozarks liao.mandarin oriental hotel.haiz hav to take lrt+ putra.
haven prepare blogging here.
wei kang ahh, tell me the situation thre...the scholarship got 20 portion, high possibility can take but i dunno how far the quality of the uni is.
but gif myself more option better.
hu knows, the GOU YAN KAN REN DI spore dun gimme offer at last. dont even bother to appeal if this thing really happen.i wan gambateh for beijing u entrance test.
hrmm.................
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SLEEP LAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!
poor time arrangement guy

睡不着因为.....

2007-03-04T03:48:00.000+08:00

嗯..今天不懂做么,3:49 了还不能睡着..跟你们讲其中原因啦,也许你们看到会觉得"做么德发变得酱谓的",但是不要紧啦,写BLOG就是要写实嘛..看了一篇写得整个部落格都是琐碎小事的blog..但却吸引我继续看下去,虽然不认识这人..好像看生活小说然后联想画面.不错.高三理一学生绘画那么多时间写废话.tunafish啊,失恋我也试过啦,哭不出那种,你哭吧哭吧.一晚就好了.

刚才,逼了母亲去天后宫.
是的,逼.
叫了二姐,妹妹他们去,却一个一个拒绝我...
待续..被一个人烦了一个钟!!
5点了!!!为什么没睡?因为我便秘...不要吐!!等下就可以上了.(死火,我这样营衰自己,仰慕者不要我了)=p

0108 010307 time n date

2007-03-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

hitz fm has been making nights so lively..am shaking body naturally while listening to the hot beats..haha..and "when it all falls apart" makes me miss jia yi and jia hui..i recommended them this song..i now think tat mayb the feng shui of my room is not so nice as the fact that i usually hav no mood to write anything inside my room,and now that im inside my studyroom, make me reminisce the time study so hard for exams...and sms wif frens to cheer each other up,or waking each other up,to be specific..and in this case,joean would be the queen of mine,cos even she didnt continue Gao San(shake shake shake, WAIT A MINUTE by pussycatdolls is on air)in ch, she was stil aware of the date of skul exams and when pathetic me gnawing the textbooks at late night, my hp would vibrate and joean's sms ARRIVED.what else can i ask for ?!

these days, jus determined to practise and practise my piano and guitar lo,dowan to remain as a BEGINNER still when i become a uni student.shud hav some solid basic den onli can go further on ma rite?

外婆

2007-02-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

小学时期，总觉得自己很幸运，因为家庭伦理剧里出现的争吵、家人逝世、经济问题、丈夫外遇等一切不好的情节，都不曾发生在自己的身上。但，原来事实并非如此。长大后，亲身经历过，也明白了许多事情。

家家有本难念的经。

身为一个青少年，大多数都不会去管家务事吧？

但我现在不开心。因为外婆不开心，所以我不开心。但我不知如何能真正让她快乐起来。钻牛角尖吗？不尽然。将一生奉献给儿女和子孙的她，能多快乐一点吗？

年初六

2007-02-24T02:52:00.000+08:00

说自己喜欢文字。说自己喜欢音乐，喜欢电影。说想当一个创作人。
但，喜欢一种东西，应该会闲来无事就会去做那档事。
但，四个月了，朋友陆续出国深造，一直不肯找一份全职工作，说要记录高中生活，做个整理，拍短片。
现在好像实现不了。好像全是狗屁。
NOKIA有一个用手机拍摄音乐录影带比赛，一直想参加，头脑想了很多点子。
包括“在MIDVALLEY商场的人行堆里，演员望着镜头倒退着走，饶舌着歌词，摆着手势”一些有的没的。
但要找谁陪我癫？所谓的志同道合？
连一个三分钟的作品都做不到，什么独立短片？
无论如何，还是会继续那个剧本。
熬到酱夜，肝开始痛了。好像以前挑灯夜读那样。

今天，去了凯的家，好美。
跟弘斌和欣敏fAREWELL...祝你们一路顺风。^^
还有，在AMPANG 总站下车好像是头一遭，拍了张照，出奇的不错。=P

2007-02-23T00:00:00.000+08:00

how many times u want me to tel u tat i can only cry for u.
and don make me ever experience tat.again.
parents said tat u shouted at me cos of CARE.
y cant i feel tat?
i tried at least.
u spoilt my fifth day of cny.
but after a nite's slp,i hope i can forget bout it.
sister.

2007-02-14T03:57:00.000+08:00

shit i dunno how to embed youtube video tim..~~~do it 2mr....nitezz

2007-02-14T03:43:00.000+08:00

u taller den me :)

wen xuan, bye bye lor

2007-02-14T02:23:00.000+08:00

哎，不能用英文打字。

本来要快快的。

让你知道，现在除了自己一个人在印度洋的上端

闭着眼睛思念？

反复看着照片？

看着电影发呆？

很多朋友正为你的离去感到不舍吧。刚和美翠聊完你。我俩要赶快更新，让你一到步，安顿好，没东西做的时候就可以看到。我比较伟大吧，因为动作那么快不是我的作风。=)

十一点多的时候，在车上，我和姑姐同时

我：应该到了新加坡那一带吧。。

嘉雯：应该到了槟城。。？？！！

然后，提及8小时就会到，维文说：文旋说会坐到屁股痛（我们觉得还好）

嘉雯：他哪里都痛的啦，尤其是屁股那边。。

我：你“窒”也没有用啦，他听不到了。。

全部：哎。。

薇帡：其实还好，06年大家不同地方念书，还不是一年见几次。。

我和嘉雯：是咯，有视讯（十一亿，连卫普科恩也写不到）嘛。。

对啊，我相信伟大的科技会帮助我们四年如一日的。哈哈。

还有要讲什么？细节应该会在美翠和嘉雯的部落格看到。

还有，要给你看一看，我们追你追到登机楼那副敲玻璃发癫的情况。注意找寻你自己的踪迹吧。

好吧，那个保温壶，是我穿着刚买，忘记除掉价格牌的衣服，大摇大摆地从jusco( ei ,可以写英文了！！

十一亿，连卫普科恩也写不到= shit, webcam 也写不到）

被别人一路笑到metrojaya买的。。加上穿着买错了的鞋，痛,走得慢, 让人看得更清楚 =.=

冬天应该派得上用场吧.

就酱啦。很不错了啦，第一次酱高调来想念你。看在你孤身在异乡的情分上罢了。

第一年自闭的hor? 那个第一名来威威看！

嗯。还有三粒钟就到了。祝你等下不会被行李压倒。 whee. ^^

aiya, cant upload the video leh..exceed 100 meg...nvm la...ganti it wif a clip u singing de...

0330 140207

文旋和美萍

what a afternoon

2007-02-11T15:22:00.000+08:00

只能在寂寞的怀抱里睡去

2007-02-10T01:47:00.000+08:00

是时候睡了
然　照照镜子
眼瞳里反射的
尽是你　弯身坐着　双手抱膝的背影

或许是错了
但
只要心曾有一丝踌躇
不是毫无感情的纵容
我为博取心灵慰籍的膺货
而卸下的自尊
将
统统升天

不会问
这算什么
因为它永远不会有个公开的答案

跟自己对话

2007-02-04T00:40:00.000+08:00

很久没跟夜里的自己对话了...这是1月30号那天,上完课驾车回家后一直盘旋在脑海里的一句话.到这几天都一直想起.可能是驾驶的时候,脑筋特别清醒吧...一直想很多.

.事因高三毕业后的这几个月,关于未来,想了许多,可是在过着假期那半闲不忙的日子(有时朋友聚会,有时做了一星期的工=p,有时看电影,有时舞台剧,有时生活营,有时新加坡旅行,有时....这个连接词好像用错了)的当儿,总会一些一些地忘掉,正确说应该是脑袋涨潮把它淹没了,让我没注意到,当退潮时,那些自己曾计划、要朝未来目标前进所应做的事，就像一堆凌乱不堪的垃圾，可怜地在等我一一拾起。

那天，驾车去找忠治和东晓，他们要到澳洲念书了。因为晚上有课，没办法送他们的机，所以就踩上他们的家道别。个性使然吧，看着朋友一个一个踏上属于他们自己的轨道，又开始忧虑了。真想有个美好的大学生活。

昨天，当了整天的乖仔，陪妈妈和婆婆到半山芭去买婆婆的新年套装。在那之前，到了学校的新春庙会，改成在户外和户内举行了。礼堂显得空荡。在通往食堂的走廊摆摊子也略显奇怪。方成，我很支持你推行课外活动，但在其他事上好像也“大刀阔斧 ”得太厉害了吧。看好来搞哦。

说会买衣服，很久没到哪里去了。记得小时候，外公曾带我到老旧的印度店理发。那时的我是很期待的，因为可以坐上模型理发椅上，就好像现在商场里要放钱才可以坐的那些。还依稀记得，在店铺墙上看过“小松升”的寻人启事。这可怜的孩子好像被拐带然后买到泰国党乞丐了。当时，这种事轰动全国，到今天，世风日下，这种事多得我们不愿在报章上看到吧。

吃了那里驰名的“福州鱼丸粉”后，就徒步到服装店了。当时，清洁工人正在清理早市后的惨剧，地上的脏水，多得让我们“步步为营”。从那里，可以清楚地看到吉隆坡塔，蛮近的，那对比煞是强烈，我又恨自己没带相机出门了。

很想旅行。今天看报纸，michael poh 将他的朋友讲一生中如能到45个国家旅游，那就无遗憾了。

睡咯。晚安。

HaJiMiMaShItE - DoZoo YoRoSHiKU

2007-01-27T23:48:00.000+08:00

wan blog but uploaded photos to flickr and add descriptions instead...at the moment, it reviews my life best gua...dowan write so much craps lo...start working on my script adi....hav to but dv liao...surveying now...and erm...dowan work full time lor....prefer some roadshow facilitator or home-based work ba...practise guitar and piano...if no solid base...hard to continue when go in uni lor....and err....cny coming...frens flying abroad...so down.....dunno how wil it b...i mean d atmosphere.....

i've waited all my life, to cross this line

2007-01-06T02:57:00.000+08:00

Ryan Cabrera - True

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heard this song unexpectedly,when i was passing thru d kastam of m'sia in spore...26.12.06. was feeling weak tat time n d melody flew near my ears n i jus stopped my steps...apparently it's a big contrast....modern music in such usang big office...however it makes me rmb someone, as if someone was soothing my mind.someone,ya,we confessed to each other and someone would oways be my very someone.

xmas trip 24-26/12/2006

2007-01-06T02:43:00.000+08:00

kuan yin temple@bugis street..shud go in and pray...amitabha

ambassador of singapore travel ministry:"singapore is a rainy country,oways pour water like the merlion,so when u come,take umbrella oh~~"

in front of the nanyang academy of fine art

nice singapore river view~~breathtaking~~wheew

want for more? visit kai or gu zhe or mic de blog ba...hekhek

2007年1月5日

2007-01-06T02:03:00.000+08:00

今天.和丽莲一起去见工...成功了...我们要努力赚零用钱 ^^...然后,去看戏..超感动,好像很久没用学生价(6块)看一部戏..上次和文旋在klcc看"快乐脚",还12块呢!竟然以为"雀圣3"是贺岁片,还很兴奋地跟丽莲讲:"我们是朋友群中第一个看贺岁片的(因为今天刚上映)!!"...现在想回来都觉得白痴...不错,满搞笑的...伤城,a night at d museum,算了吧...比较期待"生日快乐"...如果"太阳雨"再上的话,我应该会再看多一次,我说.然后,在borders她点了一本关于经济学的书让我看,然后我们谈了很多很多,我念经济的心坚定了...然后,再谈很多很多,在wings cafe 吃晚餐的时候...走过去的时候,想起去年(还不习惯这样称乎2006年),我们穿着校服,捧着生物课本而来,吃了闭门羹...都觉得,在忙碌的中学生活,硬挤出时间出来消遣,比现在得空时出来过瘾...算准时间去吃,9点开始有歌手驻唱...有一个新的模仿s.h.e的本地三人女生组合叫why,结果我们点歌时,写名为answer二人组...结果歌手却念成tony什么的,莫名其妙!
10点,回家!!到了她家等妈妈,这种生活,好多年了...坐在客厅,我们还回想大伙儿最后一次在她家过夜的时候,驾车到我家附近的mamak喝茶至凌晨5点...我和光顺在那里过了开心的16岁生日...朋友,你们到了大学后,暑假时,轮流做东,让我们其他朋友飞过来(不同的国家)backpack...好吗?嗯,德国,英国,美国,澳洲,日本,台湾...都有耶...就酱说定啦...
无论发生过什么事,我们是曾一同走过青春岁月的一世朋友.

lalala~

2007-01-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

还是那句话。连我也开始讨厌自己很想些却一直拖的性格。那些要讲“你都是酱的啦”的人请闭嘴。it would be much more cooler ba if this is in english."SHADAP if u wan comment.better save ur saliva to point out other's unfold shortcomings."

不知为何，发觉自己有的时候思想可以很成熟，有时却很愚昧。

哎呀，忘了祝你们新年快乐。

--昨天写的,现在才甘愿贴...你看你自己?!!--
bluek

2006-12-03T02:21:00.000+08:00

erm..hav to write this post v fas...sleepy d

ya.today. i sms-ed kai bin whether he wan to go pc-fair the day be4..erm kai bin.we knew each other in d "常识组”. a handsome and rich and shy guy..low scorer though, nice enuf liao la...he requested a place for advertisement cos he desperately wanting a gf...

mm.i wonder if i hav to say d truth in my blog.of course i hav to.but again, sis, mf or ps, if any of u reading this, pls dun shout, i cheat a lil' bit jus to not make mum worry...:p a kind bluff or it may b called.

i didnt parked at d sri petaling lrt as wat mum asked me to..cos kai bin agreed to pick me up at titiwangsa lrt..but they're goin out too...d woman gang of my family...so i jus think " wtf, den y shud i hav to go bac so early? so i decided to drive to kai bin's hse (jalan st.thomas, chong hwa ther nia)and go klcc from ther...so at nite perhaps i can find baby out and hav dinner...(vs dun say din fetch u be4 ah..u at tangkak..what to do)

crowded=road+carpark+klcc. wow, it's like a meeting-old-or-current-fren fair...1st guy i met was khang siang( SHET!! he calls me right after i finish typing s-i-a-n-g !! wow magic..20 mins flew...dun get me wrong not gay talk he bought a lenovo laptop and after my scrutinisation..mother f*cker the LAN port is not working!!..and i now realised ther's FACON edu fair later..i mean today...3am adi..thx for callin buddy)

and other ppl ........*stop*MUM SCOLDING!!! better finish in another 30 min*restore* rong jiang, guo rong, jonathan, yi xin, zhi ming & fellow, and many others chong hwa-ian..and got one guy....we together were members of 24 drums be4...when i was form 1 and 2...i lost his contact when my hp was stolen in form3...but i jus didnt feel like catching his attention to say hi...so jus let it b...fren is in heart wan rite..haha.

okay...dunno how to rattle bout d craps...bout how we walk to hallA to hallB hallC and den hallC to hallB to hallA...jus to compare prices, trying to b a smart consumers....but i think we werent smart, ended up with a pair of stiff legs..was shocked tat pendrive 1gb can drop to rm52,laser printer 189(OMG??!! jus bought las 2 weeks, all-in-one lexmark but inkjet wan, f*ck).....both of us aim for laptop's cooling pad.since im going to sleep, i aint gonna tell how stupid were we, finding d booths...

however, had some fun ther too...we participated in a "visit malaysia 207"campaign, actualli stupid wan...jus sending e-cards...15 minutes...d one sending paling banyak can get a pendrive..yea i want it!! and i told kai bin we sell it at ebay if we won it..haha..and after all, i did one stupid thing again....actualli we were allowed to open 2 windows, one is d campaign's site and one is our email's contacts page....we jus hav to refer to it, entering recipient's name and send, tats all. guess wat!! i get the second prize wif 45 cards sent while the champion sent 60s...till now nth wrong write?? i hoped so, but shit it, i entered it by typing word by word ( and i act clever...put"@hotmail.com" as a copy-and-paste item)...others directly copy the whole ADDRESS and paste it!! i jus cant help and knocking my own head shouting STUPID!! haiz this is the 2nd stupid thing i did after the astro scholarship application...brain rusted le...joe, d balasan of saying u stupid,perhaps.XD

7pm.dinner time.The Manhattan Fish Market. i ordered a Allaska Pollock Chip(pic later) while bin had a Flame Platte One..em..wat thing worth to be jotted down is tat, d BOTTOMLESS DRINK, i ordered an iced peach juice originally and when d waiter asked us separately what we had jus now i said coke light...haha den hor...d supervisor approached us with 2 glasses, putting in front of me and ask "iced peach or coke light u have?" i jus coldly said-i asked coke light for refillment..pretending like i dunno we cannot change d flavour.haha.bluek.i'm d consumer...blow me meh~

i told kai bin, i dun wan back home.called baby(wei hao, my best fren,chubby chubby wan,get straight 11As spm!! love u oways...gambateh for mock exam^^) to teman me yam cha,aiks he said he had to go out v family...say i was at wrong timing...haiks..nvm lo.kai bin said den"u find gals come out la,i teman u ".shit tot him so good...it's was a intrigue after all =.= .... i didnt wanna disturb dem...my clas d gal all guai mui...won simply go yam cha wif guys de la..so i jus said i sms-ed n no reply frm dem.sori wor kai bin keke.

eventually, he got 2 leng lui out.both of dem leng lui de..duh, rich summore...i was like "shit, you3qian2 gia~~" when kai bin asked dem wher to go and they answered SRI HARTAMAS.
ok lo, widening my perspective, go ba...i drive with kai bin beside me..this stupid fellow suggest to go ther wif 3 cars...4 ppl...sa de.

reached ther.ok ba.not so expensive.but ther's AIR SMOKE.dunno u guys c or heard it be4 la...it exists in some mamak..legal de i think...supposingly...i terkejut initially, wa 2 gals ordered this(17 & 19) den i shy shy d...haha.hope my sis didnt c this.i hor, asked for kai bin's hp and took d picture down, den they asked me to hav a sip and blow some smoke and take picture...after confirm it's not cigarrette kind of thing...i had one and i cough...* (pic later) i swear i wont try cigarrette even under strong persuasion, blieve me mum u know i hate dad's 2nd hand smoke*they convince me i look nerd when i hav my glasses so i purposely to take it off for 1minute jiang...=p summore kai bin told dem im 1st class guy..argh.d 19 gal is kai bin's ex-classmates..when we discuss bout pelajaran, she disclosed tat she was originally an ADP student and she stops it cos fail sth like tat..turn to canadian pre-u nex yr..said it's a waste of time..and lightly mentioned "10k something nia" i jus said nth and swt in my heart..haha..u can feel me don't u.she and her cousin were nice after all,speaking hakka and like clubbing...sharing d experience..like thai club many LALA...zouk got VIP stuff etc...

hmm...sis called and i said i was at the OUG steven corner...i hate to cheat but jus to avoid some unnecessary scolding..*hey, cannot scold me ler,i go pcfair buy nothing but pok sam pok meng to buy dem laptop's cooling pad,this kind of bro, wher to find* summore i at mamak too,diff area onli ma...

yea.end of my day.

2mr.sing k wif grace(going to marry in march 2007,was my primary computer teacher..yea close wif her, we went pangkor together, erm omoz a gathering evry end of d yr ^^) hwa huat, zhi ying and penny...blif or not, this date was being set in OCTOBER....3rd of december... walao i oso dunno how to describe...so early...and time passes by like hella rocket..this day come...but now 4am liao..10 am wait at sri petaling lrt...hope i can make it :)

恋

2006-11-28T04:28:00.001+08:00

不愿承认
不愿面对
我真的爱你很深很深
一个笑容
一句话语
都让我心跳很快很快
每个思索
每个欲望
全被你占据很满很满
无法平静
不想透露
因为爱你快乐很久很久
情愿醉死在梦里
当一切都变的无力
情愿为你而美丽
当你呼唤我的名字
情愿默默的隐藏
当它只是一个错误
情愿很久的以后
当一切被时间冲淡
我只会更爱你

listen to this repeatedly tonight...gu zhe, i think u will like this too, after the 伤心海洋...

so stubborn..determined to modify my blog be4 i sleep....4:22 adi la...
things below were wrote in a notepad when i was still conscious....
i jus paste it now..if u understand d ramble...XD
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| shud type some here be4 i lost my memory//

today ar...sek bak gor lorr....regret to tll u tat...wellington reject me la..shit

and pei mun...haha..she wanna tell d rotiman..dun wan....as as she waived her hand..she said BYE BYE//// all of us laugh still sok zai yat gao on d sofa!!

and erm zheng li my room liao

and ermfeel some moddiness--all ppl go travel go play-
but itell myself=shud chen dian
not to travel onli
i think i will miss d secodndary life
after organise my all phot
is tatd real gan dong?

and erm...nothing lo...2mr go lee wei song music class
hav to figure out wat uni im gonig to apply
be4 the asteroscholarship
dedline comin!! |
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all frens goin trip adi....wish dem a happy holiday ler..

nite huat

a date with ah huat

2006-11-27T00:47:00.000+08:00

hmm, actualli very tired now. but i relli think tat i shud b more disciplined, in the sense that, i should do what i hav promised to myself...like writing my blog.well, i wonder if u guys would fed up of c-ing such words.whatever.

today is ying han's big day.yap. she's havin her very first charity concert,raising fund for d hall building of a primary school, at auditorium of summit complex,USJ.well, i went and be d stage crew upon her imploration..XD..actually i am obliged to give her a hand, as she called me "kai gor" ONCE UPON A TIME during in form4,5 ?? not so clear adi...

ok,actuali i didnt slp much yesterday..tat phucking khangsiang(dear, borrow ur name to hav this adj been added be4 okay...cos ppl would misunderstand tat sth serious happened...ahemm for d fact that ur fren so refined,ppl don expect these bad words to be typed out of my fingers...but frens...i found tat it's kinda funny + self-emancipation by doing so....so, accustom to it ba~~) called me up at 1 something...plus i was just back from KLCC for MPO(malaysian philoharmonik orchestra) christmas ROYALTY(cost me 10 bus onli..thx chong hwa for ur name ^^) show..so v tired..ppl oredi decided to wear contact lenses today mar...need slp so my eyes can open wide!!

today morning, i was roused up frm slp by my mum...7 sth...den after Lai Chuang till 8.30, i woke up and @##$$% ( daily routine, but extraordinarily faz) lilian arrive at 10am..we got on my car and i quickly satirize her : "dunno who tell me leh, say 10am START rehearsal WORR...aiks" haha enjoy listening her explanation cos usually im d one who do so...=p..my frens probably could figure out what im indicating..whee.

reached ther at 10:20, thx to my nice driving skills.xin min and other gals were oredi ther.gave me a radiant smile( hey xin min, i like ur sincere smile v much u knoe) and erm start rehearsing tat stuff lorr...about 1 pm lidat, we went for lunch..a hk-style restaurant..mic (not tat mic, is michelle) was v hungry, wan to say sorry too, she went up kl by ktm den i fail to fetch her....it's had been such a hassle for her to reach summit..[aiks, oways swerve from the topic, but u knoe wat, blogging's like tat, we just hav endless story to tell...] skip the eating process.conclusion is, mic had been waited until the resting time finished, she ate nothing..and one thing v funny was tat, wee chean so FEI, he "shua wu lai" to d cashier when he was paying his portion, saying "rm8.90 de thing" , means tat he ate food that costs this price..what d hella sentence is tat...den less den one second,the cashier repiled" 9.38 PLS"WAHAHAHA....c d point anot, it's just sound like cashier sneering at him" haha u ate 8.90 de thing, so wat? pay 9.38!!" relli zadao, c how u interprete d story la...

my job was just to in-charge of the microphones,i.e. to adjust their position on d stage bcos there was many types of performance:piano recital, quartet(saxophone+piano),choir,duet,octet....diff instruments were used..let's count it out, piano, violin,cello,[electronic guitar,bass,drum set],vocal of course...wow, siapa panggil ah moi ini so talented..opps..those bracket-ed up ones were what formed d band...pls don expect my ellegant yinghan to play tat wearing her gown..

d prelude was: THE PHANTOM OF OPERA!! wow..it was enthralling, she relli did show her vocal to its fullest...cos when in d rehearsal, i heard her voice..a lil' bit unstable...erm...and the show went on, and actually what i liked d most were d vocal part..songs by george gershwin 1.I Have a Crush On you 2.Somebody loves me 3.Someone To Watch Over me and most importantly, PART OF THE WORLD..sang by little mermaid....wow i love tat so much..it let me reminisce about d past...i think i stil hav d tape, well kept inside my store...and erm, the charles boey who played electronic guitar..the sound effect was just what i yearn to listen frm a song...dunno how to explain...jus..took my breathe away...blif me, early or late, i would let d mesmerizing sound to come out frm d plucking on the strings of guitar by my right hand!! i swear.

after the show ended, ying han belanja us makan...include hongping n chris n shengran except those performers n crews...and after tat, took photo v her pretty cousin sisters...ai ling and ai jia...they called themselves"lin jia 邻家女孩" =.=|| they was fashionable though.and erm, not feel like going to continue chatting in ying han's hse....den asked if chek siang(primary friend, currently studying in tarc) free, i go fetch him for dinner...ON, den i continued on my way, havin traffic jam...

start frm here, hoping tat my sis won c this...XD...i told some lie to my mum la, jus dun wan her to worry...driving ownself...ok wat, im stable enuf ok..

realising i was alone in d car, den i increase d volume of d sound system...follow yanzi to sing...scream!! test road...try to back home passing by pyramid, instead of kesas highway which i used to...actually, i was searching for a shop too, PICASO, a bridal shop,anyone knows?? dun ask me for what ok. i jus keep going, ther was one minute of time...i felt a kind of directionlessness...the sky was going to be overwhelmed by darkness...but i knoe i need not scare,indeed,i like to drive under those neon lights of city. i aint going to discover anything with ugliness, however it exists in this city...mayb some ppl were having their dirty deal ( drugs.?) tat costs up to million or billion...mayb some gal or boy or gal/boy were selling their body and soul just to earn 50 bugs for life...mayb some of dem were in hse...having a good time with their bf or gf, even a fren, hugging each other while watching a small tv, at 9th floor or 20th floor of a condo or low-priced flat...transmitting heat to each other ,equilibrium achieved(wtf science stream student) and d warmth tells everything...they need not to converse, heart beats tell everything.shit, swerve again.

then, i passed a simpang tat could lead me back home...i relli don wan get back home tat early, den obstinately, i continue my way, d route to skul...i was going to jalan genting kelang.....and den wangsa maju lrt station...chek siang and his roommates were waiting for me.d road was not so jammed, though it was congested wif cars...strong lights reflects into my eyes...argh...v dry la my eyes...seeps..seeps...nasib baik got a mousturising sprayers..hehe.

when i got them on my car...oh nightmare...!!!his fren, one called isaac, one called big-mouth (paise forgot real name, but oredi v fortunate, i burning my midnight oil rattling bout U ler..)
they dunno where to go eat...i oso dunno,cos it was not my world ther....stupid even mentioned "sri petaling many things to eat rite? go lar..later fetch us back again.." =.=..wow wat a unconsiderable fren....nvm lor...keep going, but his frens osoa lil' bit blur....din assit me tat much,knoe wat, i drive drive drive, reached ulu kelang!! say wan go pizza hut...ok..u turn back to wangsa maju...passed by one branch.."TIS ONE NOT NICE" walao, so choosy!!one of d branch..FULL..frusfrated edi, at last, ended up eating at jalan genting kelang d branch...helo, i've driven so many kilometres de Yuan Wang road!! shoot me pls, shoot me.

erm ok lor,got to know his frens...personality okay, interaction btwin them quite gd as well, jus tat, too many " sohai, lan jiao..."argh cant stand it!! onli chek siang said tat, his frens didnt.i've kicked him each time he mentioned d bad words...plus he has wa wa yin, no feel oso saying tat, v weird la...den i jus ask this ask tat lo, den keep watching my watch, ready to back...mus b earlier den dad..avoid any grumble frm him...aiks hate to cheat, even a small one, but what to do, as long my mum is assured, i don wan her to worry from the moment i step out of d house,until i come back...my mummy relli love me SOSOSOSOSOS much....everything was well prepared be4 i go out...won miss my ic or license..or ...ANYTHING!!

conclusion: a day lor, nth meaningful for me...onli one does so, i wrote this long post until now,2.34 am...though im reli exhausted edi....jus trying my best to keep my own promise...(of course la, if not nez time my promise to others would be valueless =p)

so, good night defa, a huat.

Chai Mui

2006-11-21T03:42:00.000+08:00

aish v duo luo these days...1pm wake up and then day dreaming for 1 hr...den onli start eating and for d next, indulging in d world of tv...mum prepared spaghetti, and .................
morning
i goin slp now.......continue 2mr.....

now nearly 4 adi...jus now keep discussing v derek and dx....bout how to go fetch dem...din chat lidat so long le...haha contented..though my body start burning

a conversation btwin an CHONG HWA exam anxieter v the HONOURABLE princess of CONGO

2006-11-20T03:04:00.000+08:00

Mary says:
hey hey, i oso wan to watch 蓝色大门for a long time liao..abt 同性恋de..right? i like桂伦美
defa says:
harr
defa says:
i dunno about wat de tim~~
defa says:
hhaa
defa says:
jus know it screens on d tian ying
defa says:
heard long time ago jiang~~
defa says:
haha
defa says:
we go find
defa says:
and den watch together la
defa says:
~~
defa-
wait
defa-
2mr examhor????????
defa-
haven finish reading?
defa-
gambateh arrr~~
Mary says:
erm erm..donno where can find leh
Mary says:
cuz few years liao leh
Mary says:
i like this movie lor..last time i miss the chance to watch..make me gik sam until now ^^]
defa-
nvm
defa-
i will continue finding
defa
hehe
defa
u 2mr got exam./

Mary-嘴唇爆裂...喝多点水啦..一直喝咖啡绿茶..心脏负荷不了lor.. says:
got ar
defa-
hey p/s: tats a feature of msn..wan to change ur nick...go
defa- personal setting...:) (dun throw wggs on me, need money coffee dun too much de ok
defa-
heartbeat rate increase de ah
Mary-
yea..i can feel it ^^
Mary-
really very tuo sui 1...if not i'll fall asleep o..
defa-
ohhh
defa-
den u dun peduli my movie 1st la start to worry....i hav to acknowledge u tat
defa- this fellow will b having her malay n sejarah
hahaah exam few hrs later~~
Mary-
u noe leehom got new song? english de
defa-
fas memorise ur mesopotamia
defa-
yamehhh darn...got attracted when she stated LEE
defa- HOM and NEW song
sei lor
defa-
i dunno tim
Mary-
deng~..mesopotamia..T_T
Mary-
u wan?
defa-
erm OF COURSE LA~~~
defa-
WAN EMPHASIZING
defa-

Mary-嘴唇爆裂...喝多点水啦..一直喝咖啡绿茶..心脏负荷不了lor.. sends:

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defa-penguin shoes ensure "happy"feet--who got 蓝色大门 de dvd? i cant buy ler... says:
disturb u tim sarcastic-nya...hoho
Mary-
haha..i'm too bored u noe
defa-
if feel study enuf start to b ah moe again..nasihat...@@
defa
fas go slp ler
defa-
later no jing shen 2mr
Mary-
aiyoyo..cannott first..hv 2 finish my study first MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!!
Mary-
i wonder how u go through the whole SPM last year (bu ran ni yi wei ??!!)

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defa-
but 1 am liao
defa-
though i oso studied til 3am in previous
defa-
u cannot on ur pc la i think (mary : AGAIN.......=.=|||)
defa-
haizzz
defa-
jiu go through loo
defa-
i orderu off pc now!! QI XIAO!!
Mary-
haha~..cuz i wan listen music and dl KTV mah.haha
defa-
will distracted de arr
defa-
radioactive summore
defa-
but i will mo mo +u+U+u=u=u=uu+U for u
defa-
mus get A1
defa-
i gifu my luck ^^ HAHA every malaysian gets along
Mary- v others v well...(im chinese n she's
haha~..so gud~... malay...) kiddin dun beat me mary =p
Mary-
fuiyo...i got read ur blog.u went genting ar
defa-
hahaha
defa-penguin shoes ensure "happy"feet--who got 蓝色大门 de dvd? i cant buy ler... says:
fuiyo...... i burst into laughter
defa--lol princess of gang guo i dunno 蓝色大门 is about homo de tim gambateh aru care me so much i ask sejarah care u b2k ^^ says:
dun tok 2 me le
defa-- says:
1:10 le!!
defa-- says:
mus add oil
defa--l says:
got spot
Mary-says:
haha~..zd..
defa-- says:
pengaruh hindu-buddha di asia tenggara? act like i haven forgot those syllabus
Mary- says: YI WEI
erm..tat 1 ar...will come out gua i guess.
Mary- says:
cuz i got read
Mary- says:
so i wan it com eout..haha \|/ (mentol) eh rite question wor...^^
defa- says:
mm....yea
defa- says:
princess wo
defa says:
will gif u face de
defa-- says:
wooi
defa- says:
rest 10 min enuf la~~
Mary- says:
wakaka~..hope so hope so
defa- says:
fas go continue
defa- says:
i dan xin bout u liao
Mary says:
fuiyo~..
Mary- says:
guesss wat, yesterday i slept at 4am leh~..donno doing wat.but not studying anyway..haha
defa-- says:
suo yi la
defa- says:
dun paly play
defa- says:
u wan to leave skul de
defa- says:
mus get better result
Mary- says:
wahaha~..yalor..
Mary- says:
ei, so next year where u going?
defa- says:
ooiii wan scold ppl le?? pa pa
defa- says:
r u STUDYING
defa- says:
after exam
defa-says:
we go out yam cha onli discuss la~~
defa- says:
sei lo
Mary- says:
haha~>>u say de ar (defa: feel like being focused by a wolf .
defa- says: WOOO~~~haha)
u chat v other s too!!???
defa- says:
wei i relli worry la
defa-^ says:
donnnnnnnn
defa-says:
i don even touch com during spm
defa- says:
den onli can go through
defa- says:
so off la~~
Mary- says:
aiyo..zd..i on9 sendiri oredi预了chat wif other de lah.. (mary: u beh ma,i geng de ler)
defa-- says:
though i happy to chat v u
Mary- says:
erm..will off lah~ but not now..haha
defa- says:
but now i feel like harming u
defa- says:
yes
defa- says:
now
Mary- says:
zd~..no lah~..i sendiri go chat wif u de wor..haha
defa--
defa-- says:
i relli dn wan choi u!!! walao ,yi wei!!!
defa-- says:
SCARE
Mary says:
walao~..i'm so scary meh..
defa- says:
syarat persekutuan
defa- says:
state SIMPLY SAID to gertak her
Mary-. says:
u noe hor..these few days i oredi go参透ur samudera..really 38..haha dun even reply..seems
defa- says: useless
haha
defa-- says:
where 38?
Mary- says:
i mean i 38 lo keke pijak sendiri...ohoho
Mary- says:
i noe u got write a wawancara de
Marysays:
haha.."membelenggu remaja"..sth like tat..haha flying le, dun praise me!!
Mary-says: (continue ascending...)
"gejala yang tumbuk rusuk"..
Mary- says:
ahah..
defa- says:
haha
defa--says:
gd ar
defa-- says:
lerrn lor
defa--says:
ok
defa- says:
OFF
Mary- says:
wah..
Mary- says:
memandangkan tuan sangatlah keras kepala...dan masa tidak meng-allow-kan saya bercakap lah...kucing berundur kerana rusa, saya berundur kerana masa..saya mengakhirkan perbualan saya dengan serangkap pantun di bawah
"menimba air di Telaga Tujuh
minyak bercampur air mawar
DeFa ibarat rumah teguh
boleh ambil menjadi penawar" FAINTED \__|。
Mary- says: / |
Insya-Allah..saya hendak memanjatkan kesyukuran saya kepada Allah kerana bertuah dapat bercakap dengan tuan
Mary-says:
thank u..and bye bye lah~...i hv to continue add oil..　^^

生活多一点真心

2006-11-18T11:38:00.000+08:00

两只蚂蚁相遇，只是彼此碰了一下胡须，就向相反方向爬去。爬了很久以后...突然都感到遗憾，在这样广大的时空中，体型如此微小的同类不期而遇。

[我们竟没有彼此拥抱一下。]蚂蚁心中想着：[随着宇宙空间的新开拓，我们的体型更加微小了，什么时候，还能碰见几只可以碰一下触须......]

来一次世间，容易吗？有一次相遇，容易吗？叫一声朋友，容易吗？仍然是那句话--学会珍惜，小心翼翼。

有一种朋友，跟他在一起的时候，心里完全没有负担，不需要可以地讨好他；无论行、走、坐、卧，都觉得很自在。

不在一起的时候，你知道他绝对没忘了你，他也没有停止关心你；他并不见得天天与你见面或通电话，但你知道你们的友情不会有什么变化，何以为证呢？简单！只要你有了为难的事，他似乎永远在那儿，在一个令你放心的位置、不变的位置，等你奔向他。

甚至不需要你开口，他已经从你的一举一动中，嗅到某些端倪，主动把声援的温暖的手伸过来；而且，他会做得不露痕迹，不让你感到背着人情债。

他用一颗真心与你交往，你自然不能怠慢，也要掏出真心来相待。好在能结为朋友的，通常也性情相近，不难互相掬诚以待。久而久之，你便拥有一项珍贵的财产，千金不还的宝物。

不管是分离的云淡风轻也好，向局势的风云际会也罢；拥有这样的朋友，你便经常拥有耐以咀嚼的感觉。如果你有这样的朋友，我要恭喜你，并建议你在心田深处，大扫出一方净土，恭迎朋友到心中来，直到永远．．．．．．

摘自＜东方日报＞　２００６年１１月１７日

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应该是今年开始吧，开始告诉自己要摒弃从前的想法（朋友排心中第一位),每个人嘛,都是一个独立的个体,对朋友的依赖及渴求的关怀,得适可而止,因为,两人之间的关系,存在着太多未知数,而这些未可预知的因素,往往有这摧毁一段情谊的能力。
[注:这里的所谓情谊,是属于生长在大城市的人们的。没有乡村小孩的一起偷摘水果，被发现后争相被罚的患难友情；没有战乱年代时，一同逃往、流浪的互相扶持。有的所谓美好记忆，只是共同行乐后的残余物，经不起任何考验］

这，是个悲观的想法，但却是人们生活现实的一环。当然，我们都知道，快乐和不快乐是可以选择的，就视乎我们用什么眼光看待这些俗尘之事。以上文章的所说的，对某些人来说，是理想化的，对某些人来说，那是针对他与友人之间的感情，一个很好的解说！

对我而言，我应可开心地说，上文的解述“好朋友”，我倒是有的，但这却不是我与自己最在乎的朋友之间的情况，到底，是什么无形的东西在暗中作祟？从以前的执著到现在的豁然，我一直在寻找其中的真正答案。我只知道，面对自己在乎的人，朋友也好，情人也好，天蝎座男孩总会不自觉的作出要求，总会拿自己在乎的人与他人之间的互动关系，跟与自己的作比较，然后，所谓的要求，也不是大声说出，只是在很久之后，在与自己在乎的人的msn对话中，无意似地写出来，让人有一种“有么？”“你想太多了啦”的感觉......这其实就是我们天蝎座的，外冷内热（是超级热）的终极表现。

我的姑姐（以广东话亲切称呼）嘉雯告诉我说，我们不能要求别人什么，朋友在一起，只求开心。嗯，这一套生活哲学，我早已明白了，在我们已是成年人后的生活中，应该蛮管用的，keyword就是"看得开"。

当然，人因梦想而伟大，我的梦想之一，就是让上文的理想友谊成为所有人的生活现实，包括我自己。这样结尾好吗？不然，我真的还有许多有的没的，写也写不完......

零碎片段：
[听着戴佩妮的“一个人的行李”登上myfm冠军，又因其曲风及编曲相似，让我轻易忆起初三的周末时光: 一边赶着geografi和sejarah projek，一边听着流行榜，一边sms，无知、生活模式固定的日子就这样过去了]

[等下要听2pm的大牌部落格，要听蓝心湄的“狂奔”，一首我小六那年在电脑室中制作网页时，电台一首狂播的歌，是它，把当时的记忆带到今天（除了记忆，有没有更贴切的名词？看来我要自创了......)。毋庸怀疑，歌曲就是有这种威力。

disappointed

2006-11-16T19:48:00.000+08:00

disappointed with those so-called friends who always disregard my feeling, i really meant to play and relax together after they r free of their stressful period at genting, but dunno y at this morning de zhang wiven suddenly qi xiao and went away, we were questioned and some of dem lost their mood..when i ask xie wen xuan and others what they r goin to do den,and stil wan to go theme park not (indicates tat i wanna go) he jus replied me tat nth to do, turun bukit lo...adding tat the fog was so thick and cant play d LAA...i jus feel tat v fu yan @@, harlo, genting got heavily fogged v special meh? they jus seemed to ignore the possibility, or, in fact it would actually happened, that the sky would turn clear when d day approaches noon...whatsoever, the game is not affected, i dunno wat is d point of d reason....jus felt tat v xie4 qi4...calling so many times to redeem d room,finally got it,inform this inform tat, yao zhong say wan drive and dun wan drive and den las minute say dun wan go and las las minute say wan go again.... waiting at d filthy titiwangsa bus stop for 1.5 hr jus to cater mee cui's suddent invitation ("shui fu" jia hao go..) den after he reached, hav to listen to his words summore : " ben lai i wan watch movie d lor ...suddenly pull me up ...etc.." k nvm, reached genting finally....i qi dai qi dai v much for next day's activities, therefore jus eat ther, walk around,movies and spending d time in room at nite....quite happy d watched d "death note", many questions arise and we keep tao3 lun4 after watching.....but next day, i mean today, everything was so bad.....gu zhe and xin min initially tell me tat she wan stay n play together v me(after all saying wan turun bukit), quite gratified...though at last they back oso la, but i know they care and understand my desire to play lo...not like others...haiz, suan liao , watever emotion changes in me, they won perasan and, i not like d past lo havin such low self-esteem.i am me myself, u guys dun wan teman me play, i mar play myself la, nvm de, zui duo nez time find right ppl to play...at last i play v wei loong til 3pm lebih, v happy le i think i overcame d fear of taking d "cockscrew" ride...1st time close eyes, 2nd time open eyes....haha i relli sit 4 1st time ma....so v excited lo...readers u can laugh at me de if feel tat im v you zhi...thx wei loong 4 "beauty up" my 1st cockscrew ride...he keep comforting me...lol..after tat my turn to persuade him to play "flying coaster",he daren't..haha!!
after tat leh, i took 5pm d bus down frm genting alone lo...wei loong waiting ther for his family to watch casino royale premiere woo...do nth jus slp slp slp in d bus and took lrt til now....back home, haven bath and type out all my yuan qi....i think mayb i this kind of ppl too YA4 YI4, oways trying my best to hold my ownself's temper, if i got wiven half jiu good la...den no nid fat lou sou here...but i think he 18 liao reli hav to b mature la..dun oways broke d atmosphere as yikcai said..damn it...haih tis is not a positive positive post after all, but ther r ups and downs mah right...if i dun express it out by emotion nor writing out....den i will b crazy de...suo yi jiu jiang la..go bath le ... however,genting d photo, defa1026.multiply.com =p

2006-11-15T11:25:00.000+08:00

after going through vs's blog, found tat me myself v shi bai ler, post bout my bday haven completed...relli bad habit, oways tuo tuo tuo,thinking tat i would produce a good piece of post and at last jus let d mood+feeling fled away themelves, ended up in rushing dem out...wan to apply scholarship of macquarie university, offered by EMACC, xia dao when get to know we r required to write out" the reason y u deserve the scholarship", 2000 words, closing date is 17th of november... sei lo...will be going up genting later, how??!! nasib baik i called the IDP, they said forecast result is not acceptable(they change their policy this yr), while d actual result of UEC will only released on the 13th of december...means tat even those SAM students cant apply this(cos today is their las day of exam)....hweuh....relieved and disappointed at d same time-- happy is tat no need to rush out d essay, sad is tat we r not eligible to apply....nvm lo...jus hav fun in genting later...!! i wan go play the classic roller coaster!! ( blif it or not i nvr play be4, there was once i queue up to play, but feel like peeing,so dun wan take tat risk n left for toilet, otherwise ppl will sense d "raining") feel myself v wu liao , c ppl's blog so full den terikut-ikut (cos of bu gan yuan,haha)wan write...but in d wrong time...going to meet yao zhong,yik cai and aaron up 2 pm....shud prepare liao la~~~~

post some pic 1st....unrelevant d

2006-11-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

因不想被父母说成“不懂事”，所以总逼着自己看破这世界，没机会，不小心翼翼地接待身边所有人、事、物

（不知是何时有这感觉，输入电脑时也觉得牵强）

是为何
我们要放弃自己的理想
那感动自己的机会
拼命在庸俗的社会里打滚
赚取金钱
购买由别人产生的
只让咱们感受那片刻共鸣的
那永远不属于自己的
感动

（看了FLUSHED AWAY 后，在繁嚣的等待轻快铁时，看着路过的人们，各司其职...发想）

thx chia voon sien for bringing me to the restaurant that can hav magnificent view from inside of klcc, but cost me 20 sth to hav a normal-tasted pizza....but finish liao MUET, so happy, nvm la, i no fate of watching murah movie..saturday rm11 leh..tgv..damn...lately v SIU GA..cos quite miskin jiang...lun2 luo3 dao thinking of being a waiter again in SHANGRILA..but too happy being in home...can watch drama 3.30 to 4.30 6 to 7 7 to 8 8 to 8.30 8.30 to 9.30 9.30 to 10.30 ......haahaha v relax ne...

tat fxxxer wireless-router seller,he shud know tat router+ router will crash de.. still sell me that, make me reset my modem router and cant online for few days...%%$%@ and now hav to continue applying uni le...and yesterday go audition superstar fail jor hahah...and...y am i putting so much rubbish in my blog...???

i shuang ah

2006-10-28T01:37:00.000+08:00

其实咧，我在想，如果我再不写些东西的话，这个BLOG就要zap lap了....虽然，真的没有feel要写东西啦。

　　今天，我没有上学，但却目送着荣康和咏桦坐着我爸爸的车去上学，蛮好笑的...１８岁的第二天，我竟然是在颓废中度过的，不过，在家懒散总好过在学校想睡又得死撑，趴在桌睡又弄得手红脸红那么狼狈吧...下午４点时，我望着客厅的钟，突然觉得时间过得很快，心里在回想着，昨天的这个时候，我还在忙着准备这难忘的生日...

paise,the way i narrate oways not systematic de...lol

－从生日前一天说起－

shit.........

very sleepy suddenly

dun wan write le.....

2mr continue

WU LIAO la u defa

2nd post in english

2006-08-16T01:35:00.000+08:00

omg!! i'm too terrible...mic and siang left me a msg 30th of july and how dare i c it only on today!! frens, actualli i hav switched to wretch.cc/blog/defa1026 de...but now felt not willing to leave tis blog alone...si qi chen chen jiang....erm...actually too many things to rattle about...but too much tat i hardly figure out wat to say..nvm jus tok wat i remember....

saturday..told myself to write my gao3,do my art work,copy math notes,revising bio....and rush for my SAMUDERA...but ended up in singing together....wif the singers in d tv screen!! it's summer 8degree concert...frens u got watch ma?? den hoh..sunday..watched a live show "i wan to be a model"...cant believe my eyes..y kl so many dun hav self-estimate de ability de...got fat guy go interview nvm,but he ju ran said tat" my eyes r d most ATTRACTING part"..my gosh..i think his tummy attracts d oil d most la!! and got one lagi SUi, go there imitate batman,superman and Steven chow..den night happy go for steak..hav butter grilled fish and frech toast..nice!!..den E(energy)enufi start working on my SAMUDERA magazine...my editorial board..all need me to urge dem work ...(but quality quite ok)..hav to an pai this consider that...but learn many things indeed being an editor..plus tats my dream all this long..so tat night...i work till monday 5AM lor...

and den hor,,,monday(yesterday) after back home no tenaga read le....DNA tat stuff leh....nasib
baik today use 1 hour be4 test...read read read....den not tat hard...managed to answer in a calm state....den yea..today got HK student come our class!!! student exchange !! for 3 days..same yr old wif us de...

den 18th (friday)'m goin wif dem too...for a camp at dong zhong,kajang..5 days...(sorry KANG XIANG cant support u at ur concert)..den 23,24 got class replacement, 25,26,27 prepare for choir competition!!!holiday spoilt..........aikss........

now not slp oso no use liao...lusa chinese test luo..me as a GAN SHI,,,get low marks v tuo sui...
so mus slp....qi dai my magazine to b published.,baby....nitez ^^

sorry onli recording these 流水账.........：P

星期六的夜晚,如此暗淡

2006-05-20T20:43:00.000+08:00

星期六的也晚,显得如此暗淡.这是我从童年到初中时期都一直认为的.当夜幕将大地全然笼罩之时,我们的规律性动作是吃晚餐,然后等待华丽台的十点档电影(大多都是粗制烂造的港片)...接着赶快睡去,迎接灿烂的星期天.我得说,这大部分是因为父亲出外坡工作,不在家的关系.到了高中时期,生活的接触面广了,周六不再只有呆在家的份儿,生活得以不那么枯燥.

只是,上个星期开始,父亲觉得身子不适,然后病了.直至今天,他去擦"猪毛丹"(一中传统疗发,用面粉沾水在身上推,去热毒),用鸡毛往皮肤扫时刮出了鱼鳞般的小屑(证明病得蛮重),所幸其后舒缓了.我不能否认,父亲有点大男人主义,但其出发点是好的,即使生病也要逞强,装作若无其事,深怕我们担心,可能也是要维持在我们心中他那巨人般的形象吧,他是我们家的支柱,怎能沦落成我们的负担呢?这让我低落.我开始害怕,一路走来,爸爸在我心目中竟像个超人,是理所当然不会生病的.

分针快要绕完一圈了,时针趋近8.朋友都知道,我家旁起了一间神庙,每天添油和烧香是个例行公事.不同的是,它需要我们虔诚的心.今天,母亲照料父亲已疲惫不堪,姐姐也全都在休息,我就先自动去添油..放眼望去,整条街漆黑一片,我暗忖,那么多年来,邻居们还是那么省电呵.双脚在庭院走动,四周寂静得慑人心脾,当我重回庙里跪下拜拜时,只觉晕眩.條然听见改装了的汽车排气筒声低吼,驶了进我们这条路,我竟神经质地想,会不会有匪徒仗着黑夜的包庇来干案...我遂觉心寒.

面对真正的情绪窘状,我才了解平时可以的话就应多多行乐.幸好今天我没到校观赏FORUM比赛...当阿姨要带父亲外出治疗时,提早启动汽车的大姐竟大意把车反锁了,备用匙也在车里!他们只是没好气地换车,赶忙出门,这边厢,还呆在家的KIA CARNIVAL,因不是本地嵌装的RIA,所以折腾了半小时,开车佬才勉强成功,收了友情价RM60,但也够心痛的了.

刚才和叶宏(中国朋友)聊了许久,到中国留学的意愿越是强烈,一年RM20000,本地私立大学都不止这数目啊,开阔视野其实才是重要的一环...本地和外国,其实没两样.所以...要补救了..三角和微积分不及格,但没后悔,开心就好,接下来加油就OK了..反正,它是不属于我的天空.

爸爸,祝你早日康复.就明天吧.

^^ smile more oh

2006-05-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

Came Acrossed these jokes in dennis's blog--^^

If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP?
Do Lipton Tea employees take coffee breaks?
If olive oil comes from olives, where does baby oil come from?
If people from Poland are called Poles, why aren't people from Holland called Holes?
Do infants enjoy infantry as much as adults enjoy adultery?
Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?

If horrific means to make horrible, does terrific mean to make terrible?
Why is it called building when it is already built?
If a book about failures sells, is it a success ?
If you're not supposed to drink and drive, then why do bars have parking lots?
If you take an Oriental person and spin him around several times, does he become disoriented?
Smiling Is Always The Best Medicine ~ ^_^

doesn't it weird when defa asking ppl to smile...b happy...joking around..

wu liao

2006-05-08T22:55:00.000+08:00

i wan to write stg bout yanzi concert
i wan to write stg bout life
i wan to write stg bout music
i wan
i wan..
very wu liao hor
lately =p
room too hot mayb

WoHeNwUzHu

2006-05-04T17:54:00.000+08:00

昨天miss了的歌
飞行943
PIANO
LEAVE

我始终带着你爱的微笑一路上寻找我遗失的美好
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也许我没搭上爱情的时光机可时我永远不会忘记。
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
数起来又不记得了你就是看不清你的摸样
我已记得你的方向我爱着你的双手
能仰望着远方我看不到我看不到
知道你的爱已经不是我怎能一起向海呼啸着对方

出乎意料的一天

2006-04-29T17:32:00.001+08:00

发觉我的泪腺可以很旺盛。。
刚才终于做到自己想要得事，那种我现在勉强有理由可以办的事。。。那就是叛逆。
泪流的愤怒，只有家人有那种能耐，让我受了委屈会哭的。。
自从去年尾班旅后，从未哭过，在那之前，我也是一年多没哭了呢。。
刚才一人搭了putra再转STAR去嘉雯家..途中笔下了心情。。现在平复了。。
"u are fooling urself to pan ni"
耀仲这样对我说。是啊，我是为了叛逆而叛逆，连转身就走的勇气都没有，我就是那么理智。
我承认，因为我清楚知道那是我的底线。
我是爱着我母亲的，就如她爱我那般。。我无法想象她的反应。。若我一走了之的话。
所以，我并不觉得那是不潇洒。。
年中考期间，竟然做出这样的事。。
德发职能~~~无奈的笑

出乎意料的一天

2006-04-29T17:32:00.000+08:00

2006-04-29T16:52:00.000+08:00

滞

2006-04-14T18:59:00.000+08:00

此时,德发的身躯,只附着其半个灵魂.学会后的雨天里,漫无目的地游走校园.看见学长团在国志楼勤练步操,一群男生在雨中打篮球,心中又燃起了对中学生活的不舍.但,想想,就算我多呆几年,也无法摆脱理科第一班课业的束缚,它会是束缚,只因一切并不是我想要的...所以那么多年来,这方面的不如人,我不应觉得那算些什么...只是,身在江湖的我,却觉得自己该负些责任.可能是要对自己的选择负责任.既然选了,就要做好.跟着感觉走?我试了....但这三个月来,放纵的态度换来的现实压逼,心里会叹一叹..还是做回一个安守本分的中华生吧.(书虫)[[自己多年来所经历过的还不够吗?是自己没有好好地沉淀吧?所以,我恨不得坐在案前,把六年的记忆都写成书.]]可是,真不懂那种绚灿的小镇中学生活画面会否再次在我听课时勾走我的灵魂,随之换来老师的,那一连串非让我罚站不可的问题,尤其是那可恶的刘明华(数学老师).当朋友一一离去,我更是撑得吃力,益发陷入无力的状态.这是软弱吗?恐怕真的是.但我实痛恨现在的行尸走肉过度期!

不要说我想太多,我只需懂我的倾听者,我只想听见有朋友说他了解我时,我能狠狠地哭一场.余德发,我想问你,为何总是欲哭无泪.

Izzit this the 1st post in english?

2006-04-02T13:00:00.000+08:00

em..write this blog in a contented condition...was so stressed for the past two weeks...hav to deal wif many things.. ..

was considering whether i am going to leave chong hwa and head to my dream U=>PEKING(beijing)UNIVERSITY(go sit enrolment test onli)...when settled all tat stuff(money+form+graduate cert+recommendation letter)..under d advice of few teachers..reluctant and then put off my mind to pos laju tat materials...and..for sure i was totally out of the situation(bout my study in claz) plus wei hao suddenly decided to li wo er qu...go help pursue his A-LEVEL...and he switches to economics too....

wat i mean is...erm...very dilemma lor...sometimes wish to stay there with no time limit...until i wan to quit..(frankly i relly no idea for the fact tat i'm approaching 18) but in clas,no baby,no gu zhe,no mp,no wen xuan, mun yee and mao and dlll...its different le...
yet i hav to take care of society d things, samudera...and den dunno y i take art for UEC...when everything dash against my life....relly exacerbated and decide to cast away...

despite i hav 三语 de essay(late work) to be done, agreed to treat wen xuan eat tong shui(pronouced by him as TUNG SUI)..1st time drive rounding the skul in my mum's CARNIVAL..and den go K-tar fetch my second sis...den get on vs car...go..EAT!!! get into a restaurant..ban mian de...a low cost and simple decorated d cafe..eat ah eat...call leng lui hui yee to ask her check JPA for me and vs..vs get le!! me and hwei yen so bak ci...go fill for accounatncy and economics...sedangkan we're science stream students.. =.= tat time i tot tat the show 寻找天使 start edi...ask vs fas fas back home open tv..but when get on car(in a lorong)..
deng!!both of d two entrance..blocked by a van and a black MYVI...uncivilised de ppl...den, so yu2 tat i rush into another restaurant..wanting d ppl to open NTV7 for me...but he refused...den i realise i onli got big notes to buy tat 1.6 soya bean...i do stg very yu...put tat drink back!!!

finally get out of the perangkap...and den back his home take clothes..go luu...go where??klcc? times?? (aiks kl ppl jus hav these choices)i said klcc but he speeding and missed the corner..suan lo..times..wat movies lerr...got V for vendetta and DONTOPEN UR EYES...!! i insist to take d ghost movie,though i know it is a cheap movie..jus hope can recall some memories of laz yr inside d cinema...but tis movie..relli cant make ppl gan dong like THE MAID(songapore movie screening las yr,stil remember the warmth...)

den hor...nothing to do le...go back kuchai lama eat lor...but we teenager ma, wan go where..i den ask him to DOU to desa petaling..to c c the place i live in d childhood..many yrs le..too bc and din even come back c...all things remain...indian sweet store..many many duno how to explain ler...eat liao den go eat TONG SHUI..so yu again...i took d DA BAO food into d shop,d worker remind me outside food r not allowed..i jus calm and said,,,i won eat it here..den ar,,,eat liao tao fu fah and 花生糊...deng...eat dao my stomach full dao...dou dunno tat duck.y can eat so much and remain no meat on his body.....den go halo cafe terserempak primary frens..wif a gal...and her MUM!! opps..jian jia zhang huh...

i changed d pendarfluor light in my room...keep on and off and on..change myself for 1st time..
jus now go eat taiwan food lorr...vs say wil ikut mei cui go taiwan in may...while i considering wan go indecmber not...guan mo tuan...lilian wan go eh...who want?? latest--mao wants..

yu wu lun ci le....tired+wan do hw+sis wan use....k la...stop here

度过了迈入成年的其中一天

2006-03-19T01:25:00.000+08:00

0127 190306

告诉自己要早睡..结果还是拖至此时.若要BLOGGING,一切从简.

今天,同毛,姑姐,凯,文旋,弘斌,甲豪,耀仲,丽莲,娴慧去看电影界<小孩不笨2>,虽看了影评,说剧情毫不保留的说明了一切,少了个让人省思的空间...而我就觉得给于related 的人(不论是不上进的孩子或不懂关怀孩子的人)那如同当头棒喝,而且笑料确是新颖,有几幕蛮赚人热泪的...还听到后座有人问:有碍TISSUE 吗...=.=

我们过后去吃了OH　ＳＵＳＨＩ，嘉雯点的汤底有猪肉臊味，她竟把面倒入文旋吃过的＂够味＂汤底里，更＂胃＂，哈，跟＂亲爱的＂不用计较酱多．

逼着我自己说少一些废话．．．

话说，过后我又跟小学朋友，章利，观荣，国耀，俪云，慧颖去处citrus park 的海螺谈天．．叙旧．．
有叫志国，永伟，圆升，但他们都出不来，最后剩我们６个．．．还不错．．．等到九点，驻唱的开时秀ＫＥＹＢＯＡＲＤ．．．然后有唱＂爱情证书＂和＂温柔＂．．开心．．．我们讲话很吵，结果全部写在ＴＩＳＳＵＥ．．．够温馨，开心．．．俪云驾myVI 咧．．．我们最后到我家ＭＣＤ　呆了一下．．．就各因父母施压，而打道回府了．．．我们又重聚了．．年尾，旅行了喂！！

很累，但还是陪了那跟他哥哥一样以为，说自己＂孤单＂的文桂聊了一会儿．．

明天，要奋斗了．．既然选择留在中华．．不是吗．．．这种岁数，似乎心地深处有个声音，提醒我们，要开始对自己的所作所为负责任．

安了．．2am lehh....

NaKaNa I De mwooh... my heart

2006-03-16T02:24:00.000+08:00

"不要害怕"日文版
致
所有害怕失去从前
害怕面对现在
害怕瞻望未来的朋友包括那些与我互不相识的

0228 160306
有点希望像昨晚般无法登入,因为感觉不舒服,肝脏似乎在抗议了....
昨夜的字句,已寄放于MSN NICK 一天了
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听着kelly的"有福气"..回想起四年前的假期..粘在电脑前赶历史报告
..整天听着燕姿的"leave"..这几年遇着许多人事物后急遽成长,任凭
我怎么倒后跑也抓不回那时懵懂的岁月...03:44am...blogspot 无法login
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刚才,看穿了一位朋友的秘密(四年前的"平旦"生活营认识的)..一直都对自己
敏锐的直觉及洞察力很自豪..=p..他的回应:cleveeeric... 差点忘了自己有个
英文名字...因为怕跟圣然碰着用,麻烦,所以打算中学后才continue using....

今天,驾了我妈的KIAＣＡＲＮＩＶＡＬ上路，哇感觉很实在．．．刚刚也实现了夜晚
驾驶的意愿．．．答应了外婆要带她回ＤＥＳＡ PETALING,咱们以前住的FLAT绕一转,
看看那拌我童年的老旧杂货店,是否仍在营业....在组屋前的广场...是我以前的晚餐地点..
夕阳的金光照耀,听着SOLAT的靡靡之音....被外公喂一口,跑几步,喂一口,跳几下......
应该有十年之多了....

忠治,等着瞧..我会完成的!!
那ROJAK 的 POST

应该习惯在BLOG放照片啊.....
就这个吧..
我的第一杯　ＶＯＤＫＡ

丙戌年元宵节手记

2006-02-12T20:06:00.001+08:00

[元宵节,2月12日讯]
今天,在学校练了一整天的歌,时间过得犹其快,在站台上和音乐室里果然很不一样.昨天,听了留学台湾的升学讲座,明白了自己憧憬的台湾留学生活无法实现,惟有指望中国了.乘顺贤的"超不顺风"车到midvalley逛逛教育展,大失所望,还差点忘了自己的目标是优质大学呢.为了报答他,便和丽莲请她吃Saint Cinnamon..

[虽说这三年念了自己厌恶的理科,所得的知识未必没用,但真真确确让我明白,跟着自己感觉走的重要性.一路走来,支撑我前进的力量,都是关心着我,愿意听我吐苦水的友人.近来,发觉自己不爱说话了,不是内向,却得不出个所以然]

新年,对我而言,早在立春的大年初七"人日"那天黯然拉下帷幕了.
不想牢记伤心的事,只是那记忆无法磨灭
年初九凌晨,同是福建人的我们,听着附近的住宅区烟火响彻云霄(拜天公)
自己却悲痛地守在棺木旁念佛号
这天下最伤人的对比
很伤人
太伤人

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四次丧礼
歇斯底里
串串泪滴
无法自己
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8:37pm 丙戌年元宵节
中国情人节 =.=

Bon odori之友试衣间三人帮回忆不多但其份量母庸质疑

2006-01-10T23:53:00.000+08:00

开学时,东晓和忠治回校探望了我们,言谈中我得知东晓身上的牛仔三分裤只以十令吉购得,让我咋舌..因也获悉忠治即将于年初一飞往澳洲深造,因次约了他们今天出来一同买新年衣..地点是,高格调(很多专卖店,美食) + 不友善(没有方便的公交) 的 One utama..

今天,被妈妈叫醒时已是早上九点多,婉拒了与家人共用早餐争取时间出外等公巴,怎知道真如大姐所说,公共假期少有巴士,等待时问了报摊叔叔,他也说那是快要倒闭的巴士公司=.= ..急速步行回家,欲改变计划回家让妈妈载我去乘搭轻快铁,可家里已"人去楼空"了 ...我顿时方寸大乱,唯有"打的"了..登上一辆蓝包车,司机是个和蔼可亲的阿伯..匆匆与忠治联络后我确定让他载我到midvalley搭巴士到kotaraya,再乘21C的Rapid kl到目的地..可途中,伯伯说:"今天是公共假期,到处的公巴的流动率不频密,与其一直花时间转巴士,不如我载你去吧...算便宜点".好善良的老伯,我当然是欣然答应了.路上,我们的话题不断,得知他是循中校友,因年纪大了(司机资料显示:1945生年)无法再搬重物,4个月前刚从罗里司机改驾的士,也谈及他的儿女...

抵达了,我通知了他们俩,双双都被我吓个"措手不及"(他们之后形容的),尤其是很"爱"的东晓,他要鲜花沐浴+SET头才可出门..忠治在我逛完IZZUE后,坐着阅读杂志时把我给找到了(在那之前的一段时间,我目睹了一对情侣在低声地拉扯争吵),我们就开始逛了..
eat..talk..japan...
go..converse...
den tddy...batman...me four..photo..
baju...asyik dx take...run kejar bas.//
go here n there...fuxion..got ;listen song..
but loaf eat...bek 1 room ..pl use weird eye c us...
and..kingkong
c ah ching again...padini..cheap important..zhe xue..takephoto in d room...n tok quite much..many thingss..many ppl....his leg suan....but stil teman...help me take bag....
jc buy le2 lao111///when hetry...his hair..rupanya.same ai4....hoho...gan dong..
kejar bus
if not cxant back...o sincere....hope last lnog..

english wan was draft..mum scold now...2am liao..hav skul le///
2mr continue...

凌晨3:00停笔时没听见张智城

2006-01-09T00:42:00.000+08:00

独自听着收音机流泄出的音乐进行思念
寂寞二字
成立吗
"我试过在暗中配合你小火花擦得出烧不起我爱你未够深对不起"
00:07
我呆呆地听着
这首至今连曲名也没搞懂的歌
是你仅用着右手食点击
送我的

02:00
灵感敲门时若不即时迎接
将面临我现时的窘状

02:01
嗯..原来它还等着我将之笔下.因错过了欲购期,加上财政缘故,迄今我仍未听完整张"盖世英雄".言下之意,是下载了其热打的曲子.昨晚,大姐办了其21岁生日派对,当了几小时的摄影师,外加个"小二"头衔",在那之前,我与威龙,国俊,明倩,奕敏还到Petaling street为新春庙会备货,疲累程度并不逊于我姐.今天,总提不起劲去实践计划好的事,包括素描(须交上以证明有能力抱考统考美术=.=)
但,阅毕推荐句后,一股冲动让我锲而不舍地下载这首歌,直至我尝试了第五个,亦是最后一个超连结

"第一个清晨"

自去年对某些事有了一定的认知,我重听力宏过往的歌,每一首是那么熟悉,同时,给了我惊喜!一字一句,都道出我现时心声..近期,欣赏他新歌之于我会试着切入他的心理层面,揣测他的心境,似懂非懂的我了解,从四年级就迷上他歌的玄因.

今天,还透过AEC欣赏了本地短片影展的得奖作品,对早有此念头却苦于种种原因无法如愿的我,作了一次提醒,时光如梭,天知道,18离我不远了..第一次,我善用互联网的传播能力,找寻志同道合的朋友一同圆愿.(但浏览我布落格的人..不多吧=.=(框里有框:糟糕,开始惯于=.=这表情符号了))

[两小时后又要上学了
又要想你们了
想来想去很好玩么?
离什么校?离婚啦...]

终结以上疯言:
对于自己在乎的人
理智从来不胜那想将他永留于身边
那颗自私的心
爱人也好
朋友也好

镜前样无异从前可心绪缥缈失了友爱难耐

2006-01-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

不爱自己..总失去勇气笔下自己的日记.
今天办到了
日记..非文字创作呵..

06.01.06
今天也还没上课,我和威龙同样一直盘旋在学会招生的事务中..尽心力地招生,却还得面对自命清高,高傲的负责老师(电脑组)..不明白,难道加入学会的条件,不就是单纯地对咱们学会有兴趣吗?怎么能够剥削他们加入的权利?无谓的面试于学年的开始就让他人感觉到电脑学会是冰冷的..我们尽量使这学术团体的进行模式生动化,不那么拘谨,她们却要背道而驰..如此,何来归属感,对学会的向心力? 但,我又思及,今年执委会是否能上下一心,努力办学会呢?须知,让我继续留在此学会的动力,无非是不想辜负被保留的会员.从合唱团里,我寻获强烈的归属感,在它触动我的那一瞬间,我即打消了放弃的念头,只要我仍担任其中一职,就有义务完成使命,努力搞好学会.为的是会员,所以过程将是愉快的,当我想象着,我们的汗水,将换来他们在中学生涯学会活动里的毕生记忆,而那记忆,是令人留恋的...这全属憧憬,至于能否在我毕业前实现,2006年执委,加油了..

在地板上睡了整个下午呵...新春庙会,校庆园游会,全年活动策划,bulletin chong hwa..累垮了

05.01.06
与摄影学会开会后,继续合唱团练习,然后卖了KERTAS　ＭＯＤＥＬ给慧仪，再乘丽莲的车回．．没有心心情说话，可能我俩的心都驻留于去年的时空．．于车内有着班上的许多话题．．车子暫停在connaught，闷热的空气宁静（听得见粒子碰撞声音？）．在她家，讨论着成为合唱团正式会员（还我们旁听生一个名份！哈）然后，父母和大姐到丽莲家载我，去ＣＥＮＴＲＡＬ买东西，准备后天大姐妹２１岁的生日会．．怎么．．成年了．．有一天，嫁人．．害怕．．晚上，和ＢＡＢＹ，文旋聊得蛮尽兴．．盼整年都如此．．今天换位，本来抽签跟伟杰坐的．．最后，与老师对峙了一会儿．．才跟佳丽换位．．高三了，觉得可随心情走，一切不用惧怕，好啊！我还跟伟杰说．．走路停胸，踏大步，即使与学长擦身而过，他们，算什么？

０４．０１．０６
拿着海报到初一宣传，哇．．初一忠的班主任够力＂龟烂＂，轰我出去呢．．连吴珊珊（骗人进合唱团的肥肥美女)．．坐巴士回，依旧闷热..忙着卖书咯..

０３．０１．０６
开学啊!!!!!维谦，姑姐，凯，美萍她们都有回来．．然后放学后，文旋，ＡＬＥＸ他们回来卖书．．啊，好快轮到我们这年级的．．驾车回来卖书！！然后，跟他们去ＣＨＯＷKIT吃PIZZAHUT,但我看见了辣辣板面,就离队自个儿去吃了..觉得蛮酷的,连店主也觉奇怪(然后告诉我校长也常去吃!)但我可告诉谁,我在回味一种叫记忆的东西..

忘不了

2005-11-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

忘不了

作词:施文斌作曲:施文斌监制:施文斌杨震

翻开一本旧日记记载着一段旧恋情每段都那么的甜蜜往事历历在这里曾看过多少的风雨曾说过要到哪里去曾做过觉得傻的事爱过在这城市里昨晚下了一场雨让我忽然梦里见到你躲在某个地方哭泣好想紧紧抱着你有一次从朋友口中听到你消息我的心都在发抖你是否孤身一人我不停追问分手两年后我还是想着你多久没有见过你现在你住在哪里只怕有一天我们都会老去只想留一点回忆能够让我们依靠我在一个咖啡店透过玻璃窗往外望你的人影无所不在无心无魂的想你为什么人总要等到失去才珍惜我来不及想告诉你要永远不分离

一首让我埋头考试时也哼着的旋律
缘起于泪的方向
并没有与它/他/她的共同回忆
只是激动时
这首歌真真确确地如同哮喘病舒缓剂
并不是特地找个喻体表达
而是予我
最原始的触动
近及抽慉的那种

堕落的SPM周期

2005-11-19T01:21:00.000+08:00

可能是昨天考至虚脱所致
今天
电脑成了归属

"曾经为你改变却变不了预留的伏线"...跟我同呢称的人唱的

还有今天NUDGE　ＧＡＮＧ成立了，被一群人同时＂亲＂的感觉好怪哦．．哈

与母亲到ＳＥＴＡＰＡＫ的拉曼学院载二姐，车镜因下着蛮雨而粘附着水珠许许，随着车速向后蜿蜒流下，车子里特冷的空气中回荡着＂我要的幸福＂．．这张专辑不常听，意义之深，总让自己认真地听进一字一句，方能感受最初的触动．．就象凭着感觉，溶铸成一把合适的钥匙，才得以开启回忆的门．

泪的方向　让我认识了这把细腻的嗓音　种种回忆　无论那是人生的污点　抑或　辛福心跳的律动
确实　忘不了

对了．．．跟秀君联络回了．．．一个小学朋友，还记得我的生日呢．．好啊．．

糊言乱语后．．要睡了．．　；－）

外加头条生日过了仍有效

2005-10-27T14:26:00.000+08:00

中国福州之行
紫莹
习伟

中华生
明倩
振龙

小学同学
欣欣...对不起你哦....
小学朋友不同校的就数与你联络最多
你的祝福我真的记得..
立刻补上代表了我的重视
还用着你送的书签呢..
哈

南洋"心之旅"生活营
紫苓

电脑学会
国安

谢谢

已然拉下帷幕不落寞皆因有了最平凡的感动

2005-10-27T03:10:00.000+08:00

嗯..早上起床时已是十一点了...接过手机后嘴角是注定了要微扬..其中一则是文旋要求提早一个小时的简讯,我毫不犹豫地回了一封"当然OK"..但最后却迟了大到 (生日大晒么?)幸好他在逛街买台客拖鞋..先去"又一村"吃东西,他无意的一句"等你时啊我读完一个BAB SEJARAH了,顿时,我 --...
然后,听他说有叫毛和娴慧一起出来,我心情焕亮起来,因为我从monorail踏入金河时那嚣张的REDＢＯＸ宣传电视让我有了一股冲动．．人凑足四个，可以开唱了！哈．．结果，我们进入万圣气氛中的４６号包厢．．我们唱时而拍照，好开心，尤其是１０２６的那张．．

过后，毛四点要避开交通繁忙早走，我还不肯一起，哈文旋得再陪我唱，然后去买ＷＥＢＣＡＭ．．岂知，唱完ＦＩＲＳＴ　ＤＡＹ，她们两个古灵精怪碰了一串＂草莓葫芦＂和棉花糖进来．．哇，我立刻倒．．说不是毛的孩子还没人信．．棉花糖，最后一次吃应该是幼稚园时的事了．．开心可我没激动到怎样．．所以说这边１７岁的生日是平凡而温暖的　家人的陪伴当然也是个重要因素　紧看下文．．（这是哪门的编辑手法？）

唱了　匿名的宝贝（终于有了　丽莲要去ＲＢ听我唱哦）　　流泪手心　ＯUR　ＳＴＯＲＹ
　　　　爱错　眼泪知道　末日之恋　温柔　人生海海　我真的以为（还来了一句ＯＳ　～一段快乐的感　　情　如果只剩下回忆　是痛苦的～）

当然还有＂老歌天王＂毛和我的＂哭笑不得＂配唱　娴慧的＂真实＂没唱到

突然接到慧鸣的来电祝贺．．安慰．．虽然不再是初二时的密友　但仍记得．．２３３２我们约定好了要细水长流．．

后来去买了视频，就回家了．．．文旋一呼我赶忙钻进刚来的班车．．怎么先走了．．习惯了最后的．．于是捎了通电话道了句匆忙而最为诚挚的：谢谢．．搞笑，因而错过一班ＳＴＡＲ LRT..途中,德湘传了封简讯,惊讶,开心,自己需要人关怀之于,他也给了我这样难求东西!

回家与家人共庆的时候了!! 回家先是找回钱给妈妈..她又装进红包里当利是,结果拍了张照见证移交仪式! 时间不早了冲凉之前想到今天是自己生日于是自动请缨帮妈妈点油灯...然后在神庙外怨了一句"本来今天可以考驾照的!"

冲完凉我们吃晚膳咯...又穿帅帅(其实为了穿长袖皮肤敏感) 半路妈妈问我今天生日开心吗我竟婆妈地解释了许多..朋友特地偷跑出来放下书本替我庆祝晚上还有家人...我要让她知道我觉得幸福...到SRI PETALING的"围村"海鲜饭店..够力!一个顾客也没有,连苍蝇也懒得拍! 还是进去了好尴尬似乎咱们把场包了下来似的..吃啊吃..叫了个套餐,因为不须死硬照着顺序上菜,我首次尝试了鱼翅捞饭..也用手机怕照留念...婉宜师姐还记得!只是那没出息的淑冰托她一同贺我..哈,我是接受的.

回家.."金枝欲孽"时段....其后,切蛋糕...录了一段高素质的短片!拍了有质感的照片..哈.. -------->>>>
家人都说我对摄影痴了迷..哈也许是受了影响..嗯,今晚虽然二姐不在家,但有留蛋糕给她呢!cappucino..又顽皮地抓我大姐拍象和嘉雯那样的亲呢照片..

然后再跟迟我两天生日的表姐视讯聊天..嗯,这些文字好象是要留给自己保存的..你们未必懂我在疯言乱语到底是在干吗..

美翠凯威龙最迟的俊勤 noty jun 紫迎俪云东晓 E网情深好友致翔
还有
清池

谢谢呵..

我这人没什么
就是爱笔录
每个小细节
深怕会得老人痴呆
忘了自身历经的点滴
所以....
十七岁的生日
以后我就能时常来探望你了
也就可全心
拉下帷幕
念书同SPM约会去了...

德发

1026 如我告诉人那般一个类似2046的数字

2005-10-26T03:23:00.000+08:00

想为自己写点什么但短期内实经历了许多
怎么说呢一段人生里不一样的旅途
可它是一条歧路沿途风景美的令人醉生梦死
欣赏得无法自拔之际竟然四周暗下
转了面目黑森林张牙之时还舞爪
厌恶眼前的异体之余我眷恋从前向着我笑的鲜花朵朵
我早告诉过自己一切将如梦幻泡影
所以我并不输得彻底
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
刚才我确确实实笑得合不拢嘴
生日呵今年不像以往奢望太多
所以电话简讯两三封
我就不禁笑着把手机紧靠脸颊了
晚了 SPM后吧我会将所有心海载浮载沉的心情文字
全然倾注于此驿站

BEFORE
kinglee(你没忘记我我忘记你..说到做到..驾着车载你补庆!)
秋香 (语气仍旧不变感受到的是暖暖的祝福)
victor (我真的相信你是特地再上网祝福我至于为我肯爬出被窝那就不可得知了..哈)

2300 维豪 (准准提早一小时就可弥补你那剩一小时也不等的过错吗 =P)
2357 嘉桦 (礼物?认识我这哥哥已是最佳天赐品)
2358 娴慧 (当然懂你会先CALL我,不会忘记去年网页制作是你的开导+陪伴)
慧玲 (妈妈对我的祝福怎么说味道好象"草莓葫芦"..吃过吗?)
2358 慧霓 (去了你的生日会嗯还好我没开不然象现在"没生意做"可糗大了)
2359 文旋 (多年来第一次准时的祝福也是到最后撑义气的好友...不是吗?)
2359 伟杰 (懂你的心意我不是该"龙一快乐"吗?)
0002 丽莲 (会CALL来的有多少个? 认识五年不是没啥大不了的)
0004 嘉雯 (不补庆也没所谓往后记得帮侄儿准时庆就好..约定了哟)
0007 美萍 (不陪我当然可宽恕,但要年年报以美食..至于你的生日..嘻)
0008 妍琪 (唯一祝福我的小学朋友..嗯..祝你时时安好)
0010 钰菱 (除了喜悦感动没话说..随便说说且真记下来了...?)
0016 甲豪 (简单一句我收到了..)
0029 伟鸿 (懂我如果怨多几句定会出来朋友所以我不会酱朋友)
0054 敏仪(去年一起搏华教史的学姐)

LAST
忠治 (前一个月就献上了让我最终贻笑大方的祝福自己RINGO放错资料证明是用心的友人)
0300康翔 (惊喜..出乎意料外我道声谢..因GPRS结识的朋友)

我爸问我晚上要吃什么
我妈下午已和我一同买CAPPUCCINO蛋糕
ＳＩＮYING 祝了我两次
表姐还将祝福填满她的msn nick
二姐传了封mms但收不完整..她又要对我说:生生性性!!

好了 17岁的德发 huat仔发哥德4发3 啊发(客话) huat
huat huat 德发头大贴鱼 huat der neh
fa1fa1

真的大了..去吧迎接十七岁的天空

2005-09-27T07:56:00.000+08:00

~~看见恋人生活如斯充实美满,心头直想努力创造迎头赶上,这似乎不是恋爱... ~~

2005年9月23日
嗯,考完事,解放的一天!抵不住新讲堂冷气的寒峭逼人,竟连tan-1(1/x)的integration by part题给忘了...所幸前晚夜读至四更末的煎熬还有其作用所在...想我这样的人应当不缺,谁知道?这可能是他们于中学生涯,在中华独中这考试机构的最后一试.

脑子闪过的第一件事-回家睡觉..??怎么了,是虚脱了吗? 考完是归家是本少爷的作风吗? 可事关重大, 第一次前往城中最热门的ZouK, 精力是不可少的...结果,我还是没啥休息,惊觉与文旋聊过头后的首个预感为...遭"莲涵"咒骂!

哈,整装待发,抵达后只见两位提着小包包窈窕淑女..... 首先,免不了的是她们二人的不屑瞪视及冷嘲热讽一番,哈,只觉好笑

待续... :-)

经营友情的方式，错了...

2005-07-25T17:45:00.000+08:00

目送他的背影消失于前面巴士构成的转角中，我才轻呼了口气，除下紧贴着脊背的书包，并把文件夹等妥当地安置在身旁，一贯地将椅背调低，闭目养神。是呵，身处如斯燥热的环境中，已没任何更好方法能消去暑气了...但，脑袋却不安分地闪过刚才我所见到的画面，突然，前年生日前几天与他传讯时初体会的心痛又随着心跳袭来，那空虚感使我难以自己地萎缩着身躯，紧抱着书包,鼻子也被酸酸的感觉呛着了...

从他那满是关怀的话语中，我看见了那所谓中学生涯最难能可贵、亦是我殷切渴望拥有的友谊。我从不知道，对朋友，他会做出如此贴心的举动－他的转变我确看到，亦为他感开心，只是没想过竟会是如此巨大。我，于事无补地挽回友谊但又选择了错误方式将之经营下去。可能是压抑过久的关系吧，那天的我，竟以为多年的感情终得以宣泄。同时，我其实真正发现自己渴望的只是一段深挚的友谊。只是，他当时的性格与现时不同，我表现出的友善态度亦在他几次不经意的回绝而受挫，变得有所保留，待自身觉得气氛允许，表现热情后，又使之愕然，思想上认为我忽冷忽热。

现在，他有了相知相惜的好友，我俨然是个陌路人，时而在一角静观他们玩乐打闹，再望着自己写着“班级：高二理（一）”的簿子，虽时间已日渐减少，但自认尽了力，已疲惫不堪的我，可能只可选择所谓的“顺其自然”，让年少记忆留下缺憾...

想为这段记忆创造一个虚拟世界，在里头，我会重新说：

嘿，你好，我叫德发！

Bon Odori 初体验

2005-07-17T00:02:00.000+08:00

嗯，就因为那个念头－不想失去于中学生涯里参加BON ODORI（日本文化节）的机会，我豁出去了，纵然下星期的生活即将被测验完全进驻，还是得抛开书包（真的“抛”了，让丽莲替我带回家咯。。哈，是听了我唱“那女孩对我说”和“专属密码”的代价，吗？）出发之前，看到不少于光前堂前伫足的“珍禽异兽”，打扮得花枝招展，再看看自己一身轻便的潇洒，颇觉得意。喔，启程了，谁知道那道升执意要去，结果全车的人（互不认识）等他换衣，真够力!难为忠治，其后于路途中还要听他碎碎念，说剩下的两首歌没练..

抵达现场！我们首先在东晓的带领下，很不要脸的索取了多把扇子，然后到摊口买东西吃。有很多串烧食物、拉面、寿司、日式甜品，香味扑鼻，但价钱就很“臭”了。。绕了两圈后，道升和东晓买了钟爱的UNAGI便当，而我和忠治则买了大寿司，我的有豆腐皮的。。看到穿着和服的小孩童，忍不住拍了下来！我们还互相喂（交换食物），然后去答了废问题，只为了一樽有300亿的乳酸菌，可以combat diseases的YAKULT。。

过后，他们又再买食物，过后干脆用手托着扇子当桌子，四人站着围住食物“撑台脚”，很不错。后来，咱们走向草场中心看表演，但没啥视觉享受，于是加入了刚开始的群众舞蹈。。虽然动作很满，但是玩起来大家都很投入，跳得可真是幸运。忠治的脚因为受伤，膝盖部分（像文旋擦伤一样）,但还能小动作地跳，还自创，厉害呢。。

后来，我们去买弹性水球，馋嘴的他们又买了雪糕，没听我说要先去买ASAHI，结果经已悄悄地卖玩了，够不爽！但最后还是甘敢心地买了两瓶3.5％的酒精，干了起来！倒霉的我们，还被不美的女人求要扇子呢，没办法啦...无奈。

就这样，初二开始的心愿了了，明年若没离校，再去吧！！可悲，班上只有我和嘉雯去。。就因这样，被别人套上“书呆子”之名。。所以，还是无奈 T－T

p/s:太累了，要睡，明天补习！！加油了

德发

记成长的苦涩与甜美

2005-07-09T00:14:00.000+08:00

不知为何，潜意识里我总难接受自己已是个年近十七的高二生,无论是在样貌抑或心智方面。然，闲暇时翻阅日记本和相片簿，记忆尘粒总能被这类催化剂全然释放，发现本身确实于昔日生活点滴中逐渐成长了。

蜕变的过程中必夹杂着苦涩与甜美。其中，咱们难以将之加减抵消，进而总结伴随自己的快乐时光较长或苦闷的元素占较大部分。其实两者在所谓的人生阅历中缺一不可，本来就是我们在经历了无数人、事、物后所累积起来，日后可资借鉴的生活经验。

记忆中，儿时的生活是简单而幸福的。纵然有笑时而亦有泪，谁能不缅怀童年的天真无邪？因此这是人生甜美乐事一桩。“蓝蓝的天空银河里，有只小白船，船上有棵桂花树，白兔在游玩”－母亲总爱哼着童谣哄我入睡。躺在“沙笼”里的我手握奶瓶贪婪地吸吮温热美禄，任凭镶嵌于天花板上的老旧木制风扇“唧唧”作响，苟延残喘的扇翼无力但持续旋转，为的是替我驱散燠热午后的署气；当时尚是幼稚园孩童的我，似乎已下定决心要永生记住此情此景。

小四那年，我生平第一次目睹阿姨与舅舅的激烈争吵，母亲着急地飙着泪，像女孩般跺着脚劝架,那画面深深震慑我心。不错，在那之前，我确天真地以为电视剧情全不属于现实，只是江郎才尽的编剧凭空捏造的。跌跌撞撞地投入外婆怀抱，却发现她红肿的双眸噙着热泪、身躯更是颤抖得厉害，为人母的，怎能不痛心？同年，外公的逝世让我首次体会到生离死别的伤痛，此外了解生命的无常，可说是真真切切地尝到人生第一道苦菜。人说知晓悲伤的苦痛之后，方能感受喜悦的甜美－就如黑咖啡的单调涩味淹没喉咙后，慢慢回甘一样。今年年头，抗癌三年的姨丈因敌不过病魔而撒手人寰。再次失去挚爱亲人，我彻底地学会了“珍惜”，这极之普遍但愚昧世人难懂的二字真言。幡然醒悟的我发现原来自己是如此深爱着身边每位亲人，秉持着相互迁就的道理更让曾是叛逆少年的我重拾不少家庭欢乐。如今，我能笃定地说，成长的喜悦莫过于一路走来皆有家人结伴。

当然，成长生活中不乏我与友人共同酿制的甜美蜜汁。曾几何时我无法找寻生命中的定值,长久地在浩瀚心海里载浮载沉，幸得好友拉我一把，使我不致于继续盲目地泅游其中，独自承担累人的忧伤。亦是他们，牵着我手一同度过了少年轻狂的无羁岁月。依稀记得去年年尾，大伙儿于午夜踩着街灯洒下的微弱光芒，步行到谷中城影院观赏人生首次的半夜场。其后，躺在商场地板上合照的大胆行径更圆了咱们“疯狂但不犯罪”的梦－燃烧的青春烈焰在火花迸溅的那一霎那，灿然炫目的火光经已说明永远。马来西亚若有四季，那时应是深秋。在邦咯岛举行班旅时，于午夜骑着脚踏车环岛及抵着寒峭的风在码头等待黎明。朋友，还记得吗？第一道曙光的橘红是填塞心扉的粘稠护膜，让咱们达到近乎饱和状态的记忆补汤永不溢出！

奈何，我们终究是世事体悟事体悟未深的少年，仍踯躅在十字路口，不断探索自我的少年。很多时，自己像足了愤世嫉俗的大小孩，频频对周遭事物心感不满。针对近年庆祝农历新年的气氛日渐薄，友人劝我别过于执着，应了解现时代，往昔的喜庆气氛将不复在。面对她消极的回应，我不解，难道真的得平静接受吗？又问，自身的反应是否因缺少他们所谓的“日后定会了解的成熟”？我想，或许是吧。天知道，当长大后的自己蓦然回首，会否为自己往日的懵懂思想与行为觉得可笑。自己似乎一直在“制造”记忆以供日后细嚼，却忘了踏实地活在当下，可能届时记忆会更清晰呢，但，谁能替我作出衡量，确实、笃定地告诉我，须如何才能将往后日子过得更好？是该立即抽离郁闷的情绪，计划、完成该做的事，抑或任由自己用文字随意记事？如斯五味杂陈的心理总让咱们碰上问题时踌躇不前，相反地待迎刃而解后即能受到甘甜春水的滋润。

每个独立个体活在世上皆有其定位所在，而之前漫漫成长历程的苦涩与甜美，就似养分供以蛹蛰伏一个长长的冬季，时机成熟时彩碟一旦破蛹而出，展开的绚丽双翅将领着它飞过高山大川，穿越绿野村庄，采集每寸土地的芬芳，伴它远行－悠悠生命旅程，不过如此。

一步一步,迈向理想私人空间

2005-04-01T14:20:00.000+08:00

明天有华文平测,但仍无法自拔于整理那紊乱的房间.....
一而再地埋头苦干,终于
完成
这片
花圃

晚上10:16...
父母还未自香港归来,这几天,实是辛苦了大姐与外婆;
明天是愚人节,没啥期待;
糟糕,若再不抽身离开,明天可就难熬了;
再见.

p/s:我是在跟自己说话吗?

竟如此平淡

2005-03-21T18:30:00.000+08:00

应是好事
对于自己的决定似乎没丝毫挣扎
身心持续疲惫着一旦心智急转弯
同戒烟不相伯仲

尼古丁的副作用放肆入侵全身处
残喘的微弱热量如面临一二二六
恐于后星火燎原永不翻身任泯灭
可能自我陶醉但
应是好事

所谓成长的苦涩经已体会得到

2005-02-12T18:59:00.000+08:00

很多时,想把事情记录下来,可是现在发现似乎办不到..读了康翔的日式blog,突然有万分感触...自那儿,我得知他如何度过新年里的每一天。可能是如娴慧说的吧，别试着得到更多,应了解现时代,往昔那种新年喜庆的气氛将不复在。我深知自己,总要把记忆塞得满满的，使得日后拥有种种回忆来细嚼。于是，面对友人的消极回应，我总不解，像个愤世嫉俗的大小孩，疑问道,真的要这样平淡接受吗？又问，自己这种态度是否是因缺少他们所谓“日后定会撩解的...成熟”。我想，或许是吧。天知道，当成长后的自己回望过去，会否为自身的懵懂思想与行为觉得可笑。我，似乎一直在为自己的以后“制造”记忆，忘了要实在地活在当下，享受,珍惜。可能，到时后记忆会更清晰呢。但，谁能替我作出衡量，确实、笃定地告诉我，须如何，才能将往后的日子活得更好？是应该立即抽离现郁闷的情绪，计划、完成该做的事，抑或任由自己用文字随意记事？

我想知道，他们如斯接受，是经思考、有了那种体悟，或只是出自无奈，连想也不想就发挥了人类超强的适应能力，依循着此时的气氛来度过这新年...无论如何,我自觉是忠于自己的感受,继而写了这一切。或许只有我懂，但希望它不会是个“无病呻吟”之作。

p/s:想将这三天的事一一道尽，但02:57am的此时，已无心情再继续往下叙....

祝新的一年里,大家平平安安。阿弥陀佛

年华似水,何不及时行乐?

2005-01-07T16:16:00.000+08:00

突然,我倍感困惑,怀疑自己花费了两个月的时间来制作网页,真的是打从心里想要的吗?为何当初就那么执着,不肯放开,造就了今日的懊悔连连...真的，无法接受自己已是个高二生了，皆因我们完全丧失了两个月假期的过渡段，以至今日，仍无法调适。心之灰，恐无人能了，其中因由，道之不尽。但我仍感激道出明白、说出支持话语的朋友，将我从崩溃悬崖中拉了一把...今年,我将不再亏待自己,带着美好回忆度过一年,不是比什么都好吗?

害怕....

2004-12-05T07:46:00.000+08:00

糟了..怎么办,不知不觉已步入12月了......
这假期...........
真的..........
不够用..

baby给予的动力

2004-12-03T18:11:00.001+08:00

今早,9点正就到了学校IT room,本应该安安分分地开始工作,但却心不在焉,握着老鼠的弟弟(mouse)在电脑里胡乱地搜索...首先,我找到了大汇演的mpeg file,就情不自禁地看了起来...当,乐曲的旋律开始奏起时,全身俨然演出时那样,发麻...心理头有着说不出的感慨.接着,在隔壁邻居"幼稚园"post comment,不久,baby就call来了..还误以为他看了有"意见"....怎知他和"aiya"妈妈,毛(孩儿不肖,将您公诸于世)已身处校园内了--推开工艺楼电脑室的门扉一看,是的......是pizza!之前,我还再三叮嘱他"探班"时必带食品...原以为只是个玩笑........心里,实在感动到不行,只是当时不便表现出来....这为何,baby该最清楚不过了..哈.后来,就不知不觉地呆到7点,走出大楼,趋近礼堂之时,看见又有人举行婚礼..好想一睹新娘风采喔.当新娘是女人最漂亮的一天,不是吗?后来,独自一人到 The Mall领新购的相机与打印机..又一个人步行到LRT乘车.........怎么说呢,已不觉孤独,可能是习惯了吧...倒是但心手中贵重的东西....还未踏出大门,买了个cheese甜圈犒赏自己.天知道,我原不须那么狼狈的...甫出门,已华灯初上了,五光十色的KL夜生活实令我期待...尤与友人哉地坐在行人道旁细啜咖啡,一直以来都是我所殷切响往的.但,却不愿长大成人,面对这千疮百孔的社会...矛盾吧.LRT内,漫长的路程,再也无法招架寂寞来袭,就一贯的传了封讯息...现时已晚,难得一个悠闲的夜晚,暂抛开忙碌的工作,上线聊msn及upload我这真正的首个post....这一个月来,我告诉自己要记录每天干下的事,好让脑海里的记忆不断刷新...可没几次办到,造就了今日的一气呵成..哈.唉呀....太累了,差点在电脑前睡着....明日待续吧..

蓝鱼~驿站

travel light

shoutout...

Now, 2240, alone in 15th District, Paris

im a lazy ass

维豪带队在伦敦的永远第一天

zhiwen says..

group-assignment war

just an update

九降风

words for royston tan's 04:30

Updated definition of mugging

Mugging??

Thoughts after Youtube

it wasnt my choice to dream of you

paiseh

hey 19!! bye 18 =|

在这里的第二个月圆

as requested by lilian =]

eh, i tot blogspot is blocked in china ?

你

Sorry, dear parents 郑重道歉

7.7.what a WONDERFUL day

i hav a class of cute piggies in 4W :]

What has to be broken before it can be used?

当你的生命不再美丽时

如果我能爱你

finally, it's u, Tsinghua

听说南方从来不会有寂寞

Survey notification

auntie kuan

如果连自尊都已经不再需要 这个世界什么爱你买不到

RanDOm

明明是想靠近 却孤单地黎明

燃烧岁月

别把自己的未来看得太狭隘

唉..天注定

没资格写关于昨天的日记

U.S. vs BEIJING ...FiGhT !!@#$%^

RoJaK 啰也

have a little faith in me

开始喜欢上一个人

bi li ba la

lee hom lap u lap u

睡不着因为.....

0108 010307 time n date

外婆

年初六

wen xuan, bye bye lor

what a afternoon

只能在寂寞的怀抱里睡去

跟自己对话

HaJiMiMaShItE - DoZoo YoRoSHiKU

i've waited all my life, to cross this line

xmas trip 24-26/12/2006

2007年1月5日

lalala~

恋

a date with ah huat

Chai Mui

a conversation btwin an CHONG HWA exam anxieter v the HONOURABLE princess of CONGO

生活多一点真心

disappointed

2nd post in english

星期六的夜晚,如此暗淡

^^ smile more oh

wu liao

WoHeNwUzHu

出乎意料的一天

出乎意料的一天

滞

Izzit this the 1st post in english?

度过了迈入成年的其中一天

NaKaNa I De mwooh... my heart

丙戌年元宵节手记

Bon odori之友 试衣间三人帮 回忆不多 但其份量 母庸质疑

凌晨3:00停笔时 没听见张智城

镜前样 无异从前 可心绪缥缈 失了友爱 难耐

忘不了

堕落的SPM周期

如果连自尊都已经不再需要这个世界什么爱你买不到

明明是想靠近却孤单地黎明

Bon odori之友试衣间三人帮回忆不多但其份量母庸质疑

凌晨3:00停笔时没听见张智城

镜前样无异从前可心绪缥缈失了友爱难耐

外加头条生日过了仍有效

已然拉下帷幕不落寞皆因有了最平凡的感动

1026 如我告诉人那般一个类似2046的数字

所谓成长的苦涩经已体会得到